I'm Here Now But You're All Going To Regret It

Fallen Out Of Sync With The Hand To My Left

Beside me, fallen, is the key to my car
And I wonder when I really started to think about what comes after driving away forever
Would I come back home?
Probably lost in a hundred million reasons to not leave, I'd open the door without knowing it was the last time for sure

Again, when I ran out of school she was the only one I told
Hushed secrets in sixth period- I told the office I was sick in the bathroom and the girl with the spotless record got away

Running down the hill I froze and about halfway I started wondering what I would do then
Nobody saw me walk back in two minutes later, scared of the cold I might catch if I couldn't get on the next plane going anywhere else that day
Hushed secrets in sixth period- she was the only one I told
Then I spent my time trying to forgot how insane I felt that day

And when my brain couldn't stop my fingers from opening the cap to the pill bottle, I called her to tell of what I'd done
Again, frozen in the moment- what was I thinking?
There's only so much room for uncertainty and yet there's such an abundance of the idea that I'll keep failing rooted in my mind
Hushed secrets in sixth period Spanish class- well I quit Spanish to take Japanese the next year, but sometimes I wish I hadn't and we could still sit next to each other ¡Que pena!

But I was only there when I wasn't busy running away

But I was only running away when I wasn't busy thinking about where I would go next