Hey guys, this isn't a chapter.
I've been on Wattpad for a few years now, and it's become like a second family for me.
But there are a lot of things that I haven't told you that I'm going to express right here, right now.
I'm a thick girl. I get it from my mom, and I was just fine with it up until fifth grade.
I knew I was chubbier than most girls, but then I noticed a trend.
Every single boy I liked, whether Hispanic or white, they never liked me back.
They either liked one of my friends or a popular girl, and I noticed that no matter who she was, they all had one thing in common:
They were skinny.
They had a thigh gap.
They had skinny arms.
They had a petite figure.
They weren't like me.
And each time a boy has rejected me, I started to turn into a different person.
It didn't matter that I wasn't allowed to date until I turned 16, it was just the cuteness and innocence of feeling liked by someone else that I never got to experience.
It all turned me when a boy straight up rejected me for my best friend, and treated me like a freak. He acted like he truly hated me.
And that's what did me in.
I've become a numb person who doesn't know what it's like to be liked by a boy. I don't feel butterflies in my stomach, I just feel. . .nothing.
I don't let anyone in anymore, and I honestly thought about becoming anorexic because it's the fastest way to become skinny.
I gave up on ever finding someone and let my health become bad, and now I weigh 176 pounds.
My doctor told me that I need to start losing weight, and I thought I was since I used to do Physical Training in JROTC, but I ate so much junk that I just. . .nothing worked.
But now, I hate who I used to be.
I tried gaining their attention, but it never worked and I just gave up.
It got even worse when I was sexually harassed by someone whom I thought I could trust, who really just looked at me like some sleezy girl he could just satisfy himself with.
But I'm getting better. I want to make my health better, I want to learn what it's like to feel something for someone who isn't my parents or my family.
I want to feel confident and feel beautiful.
I just wanted to tell you guys, I felt like I needed to. If you have any advice, please, it would be very appreciated.
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The Littlest Wolf 》 Jack Kline (Supernatural)
Фанфик"I've been down the darkest alleys Saw the dark side of the moon To get to you, to get to you I've looked for love in every stranger Took too much to ease the anger All for you, yeah, all for you I've been running through the jungle I've been crying...
