Lock & Key

23

Rahlyn Brewster

Been sitting and thinkin ,bout you and I and I wonder why we aint gettin alone
So frustrated cause what we had was a happy home. I dont what the  situation is but I can tell by the way we kiss.
We dont talk no more, I feel better when im alone.
Sometimes I feel like theres no getting thru you when you appreciate all that I do. You tellin me that you want me to stay
Dont turn and walk away,baby im slowly fallin out of love with you
I don't know what to do
How did we end up here this way
What are we goin to do?

Keyshia Cole fallin out blasted through the headphones I was wearing. As much as I tried not to,I ended up fallin into my feelings,and I was slowly fallin into depression.

"Yall wasn't even together Rahlyn! Why are you mad? Disappointed? Sad?"

"I dont know Mel...its just him...I don't want him to be with anyone else ..he's
Mine." I sighed,no one told me that love was this hard nor all of the heartaches that came with it.

Mel groaned,"You can't stop that man from living. If he don't want you,you cant make him. As much as I hate saying this,but you have to let him go. I know thats hard for you to do that,but you have to thats the only way. Yall are from to different worlds..him a gang leader and you a collage student...its not going to work. Latrell isn't yours, Latrell is everybody's"

I removed the headphones,"Really? Thats the only way mel? What about Kylie and Travis? He a gang leader and she a student too!" I yelled. Ain't no way I was letting him go.

"Their relationship is different...they only fell out,because she was taken. They are going through mixed emotions..they will work out in the long run. Unlike you and Latrell,yall relationship is fallin out because he isn't ready to let go of his hoes and be with one, you are scared to be hurt again so you ain't giving 50% and he ain't giving his."

I screamed, she was right. Maybe we aren't meant for eachother. We come from two different backgrounds.
Maybe I need me a rich,handsome white man. Nahh his dick might be little. I'll pass.

I sighed,"Why are you always right Mel?"

"Because I am,and let me stay where Mel belong.." She laughed.

Great! Now im in here having a full blown conversation with myself. Sometimes I honestly think im crazy or bipolar.

My room door busted opened "what's wrong? We heard you scream." I stared back at them with confusion written on my face.

"Uh...nothing. The remote fell from the bed and scared me" I reached over the bed and grabbed the remote that was laying on the floor. I waved it in the air.

There was no way in hell was I going to tell them about the conversation I had with myself before they rushed in like the 12.

They all left the room except of Khy,Trell shot me a look of gulit before he left though.

"What was that? The remote fell? They might be dumb,but im not. That wasn't a 'something fell and I got scared' scream that was more like an 'im frustrated and I need help' scream...whats wrong?" She sat down on the bed and grabbed my hands.

"I don't know what to do khy...should I leave him alone, Or stay? He has been there for me since December its going on April. I can't just leave him when family members die Khy..I just can't. He got you back home." I was beating myself up about this same question.

Should I stay or leave?

"We talked about this earlier girl..You can do both Rahlyn. You can stay as his friend and leave the  girlfriend title alone. You cant make him do right by you,but you can show him what he fucked over." It felt like she was repeating shit over.