Random thoughts

Dad?

You see you need to stop right there
Before you open that mouth and talk about prayer
I'm sorry I'm not perfect like you sought out for me to be
I'm sorry i wasn't what you thought the future would or couldn't be
I'm sorry i didn't answer you may be a time or two
I'm sorry you think I'm ungrateful
But before you put those tags upon my obituary
Think about what your about to do
Calling your sons "shit"
Saying that your six kids are all spoiled
Like they weren't taught right
Think who raised them
Dad, are you sure the way we came out into this world Was all mom's doing
Your anger issues take control of you
You start on a rant then it comes back and finishes you
You tell us to look to God for our answers
But you aren't doing the same
Dad, that person you used to be...
He isn't here anymore, is he?
As if yelling wasn't enough, you drank every time you came home
Sat down. Drank your beer, told us to leave you alone
Sure you've changed, dad
No more beer
But that anger is still here
Look at you and where you've come from
Telling us stories of what you did as a kid
To grow up have kids of your own
Telling us you don't want to be your father
Dad, do you see where this family is going
It's sad to think in a few years you might have to explain to your little girl
Why bubby isn't around anymore
It's sad, accusing your other son to be going down the same path
Calling him a piece of shit
As if he didn't take those words to heart
Dad, you're the father
The father you tried to not be but instead became