By Your Side; Ksimon

Chapter Twenty Nine

Simon's POV:

"JJ!" I giggled happily as he wrapped a blind fold over my eyes, we were only a couple minutes from whatever destination he had in mind, "You are mad!"

JJ stops the car, opening the door and shutting it. He runs around and helps me out of the car, I stumble from not being able to see.

He keeps a protective hand on my back, but the more I feel his touch, the more I can realize that it is shaking, pretty hard actually.

Wherever we were, it was defiantly outside, I could hear the trudge of leaves as we kept walking, the air was crisp with a soft breeze. Suddenly JJ removes my blindfold making me gasp.

We were on top of a high hill, overlooking our large town, the sun was slowly falling behind the horizon, the most beautiful sunset was in front of us, it was like a dying sun, "O-Oh my gosh it's...beautiful." I whispered taking it all in. JJ slowly walks to the very edge where a blanket is laid on the ground. He sits down on it staring blankly off into the sunset.

"Y-You planned this?" I questioned softly as I sat beside him, joining him. He turned his body so he was mostly facing me, "Why...?"

I noticed JJ looking down at his hands, grabbing them to stop them from shaking, "JJ...? Are you alright mate..?" I questioned softly, was he nervous? JJ doesn't get nervous very often, let alone shakey.

He takes a deep breath, looking me in the eyes, "Simon, I'm a lot of things. I'm a jerk, I'm ignorant, a pussy, rude, spiteful, a bully, an asshole-" I cut him off quickly.

"JJ please don't say those things, you aren't." I whisper, but he shakes his head.

"Let me say everything I want first Simon, please." He pauses a moment, trying to gain his composure, "I'm an all around dickhead, but I'm not blind. I know a good thing when I see it..." He sighs, running his hand through his short hair.

"Simon, ever since I first laid eyes on you, I knew you were different, you weren't like the rest. When I saw him punch you in the bathroom, I felt the need to protect someone, something I don't usually feel. You scared me." His eyes wonder back to the sun, but I kept my eyes glued on him, giving him every ounce of my attention, the way he was talking scared me. He kept his voice calm.

"We did regular guy things, playing football, joking around, but we weren't regular guys, we weren't regular kids. Kids would beat up on you and I'd just get myself into trouble, yet we always seemed to somehow bail each other out, no matter how bad it was. And whatever pain you felt, I could feel it even more, seeing you upset is worst then any glass in my stomach, I would give you the world Simon. I would give you anything...you deserve more then anything this world has to offer you. More then I could ever give you." His lips quivered as his eyes started to water, I could feel myself tearing up.

"I made your brother a promise, a promise that I would protect you. I've fucked up, a lot, yet you can still look me in the eyes..." He mumbles, reaching up as he gently touches my cheek, letting his hand slowly trickle down. "I have never met someone so strong, someone so kind, someone so perfect."

"Like I said, I'm an idiot...but I'm smart enough to know what I want. There isn't many things I want, but when I want something, I fight for it, every single fucking day." He whispers softly, "I told you before, and I'll say it again, as many times as it takes. I want you Simon Minter." His eyes travel all over my face, he tried keeping his confidence, but it seemed to slowly be slipping as I stared at him in shock.

His words started to speed up as he started to sweat, "You're everything I could ever ask, you've made me realize that there is something for me, that there is a reason to keep living, that it was you, you're right in front of me. You're the only reason I'm excited to wake up every morning because I know my day will consist of nothing but you, no matter what I'm doing, who I'm talking too, no matter what, it all always leads back to you. I don't want to loose you...S-Simon y-you're amazing, y-you're-"