Eternally Yours

The Three R's

Spending this week was amazing. I lost my job but I didn't care. Iwould soon be moving. It didn't come up the first week. During thatentire week I was surprised with how much I had missed being aroundmy family.

The first week was...like all the family holidays and sending timewith my family. Their tears wasn't good and I hated that I'd beleaving them soon again. But at least this time I would be able tolet them know and they would be able to hear from me.

I touched the key that was suspended by a chain under my(shirt/dress) knowing that I would be able to talk to them at thevery least. What would I do when my little sister got married? Whennieces and nephews started to be born? When...when mom and dad woulddie.

When my siblings would die.

When the nieces and nephews would die. And their children. And theirchildren's children.

I'd be taken out of that, not be able to continue to grow with mybrother and sister. None of us were ever very close. We are justnormal siblings with the fights and the love, but I won't be able toprtoect them anymore. There is a saying 'siblings; the only peoplewho will make your life hell and beat the shit out of anyone else whodoes the same.' And that was true.

My older brother and I went to a (amusement park/aquarium/etc) weused to always go to as kids and just talked. He and his wife aretrying for a baby and it breaks me that I will probably not be therefor the birth or the afterwords. I hope that Lily and Jason canmanage to visit them every year and slowly phase out, skip one yearthen visit for a while and skip two years and just slowly phase usout. I would like my family to meet them and know that I would beokay and happy with them.

My younger sister and I went shopping, we had breakfast and went toall the stores stopping at both her and my own favorite stores. Westopped by a cafe for lunch, went to see a movie, and then continuedshopping. You two didn't come back till dinner time, I knew that Iwouldn't need the money since the world I would be in didn't usemoney like that so I bought he a few things.

My mother and I baked. We baked the entire day. Bread, cake, cookies,rolls both sweet and savory, pies, all kinds of things. More then anyof us could eat so taking the extra we took to a food bank. I thinkit hit my mother the hardest me being gone since she understood Iwasn't the type to have done that but no one would listen to hersince I legally speaking could disappear if I wanted to so it wasconvincing people that I really was missing.

My father and I did the one thing he and I used to always do. He tookme to where he grew up fishing as I was younger but now golf. Thegame was slow going and could be boring. Two months ago I would havebeen bored out of my mind, I'd wish for anything to get me out ofthis, any excuse. Now though knowing these would be the few lastprecious moments with him I hated when we saw that pole with a smallred flag declaring it the eighteenth hole and that it was almost timeto head home.

I never really thought about it but really I should have done thisbefore. No one is guaranteed life, any one of us could be taken bythe Grim Reaper, or as Lily and Jason called him the Master ofShadows. I've heard stories he can be bargained out of it by beatinghim in chess but not only did I somehow doubt that he would let thathappen; and would probably be annoyed with bargaining like that.Besides I'm not that good at chess anyway.

But the first week was amazing. The problem was the second week.

That was when I mentioned Lily and Jason. My family was open mindedand if I had just been with one of them it would not raise a singleeyebrow but being with both of them was just strange. I would agree,I never would have pictured myself being with two people at the sametime much less ones related. Definitely not twins or siblings forthat matter.

But when I told them I would be leaving with them to travel theyimmediately started freaking out. I didn't understand why, I knowthey were scared but this time I was telling them before hand whatwould happen but they were scared of me.

It ended up in a screaming match and I hated that this would be thelast time I saw them possibly but maybe this would be better. Itwould explain why I would only talk to them through mail. That waswhat I thought as I locked myself in my room to keep calm.

What I didn't expect was them to make calls saying I was a danger tomyself and others. So that's why I'm now in the hospital.

What worries me more then anything was I was supposed to come backtwo days ago to Lily and Jason. What if they think I didn't want tobe with them? That I'm not in my home, not that they knew where itwas exactly, and they'll leave. I cry a lot thinking of them thinkingI don't love them, that I played with their emotions, and when I'mfinally out tomorrow going to the mill and...and entering an emptybuilding.

I feel bad for keeping my roommate awake if not for the fact thefloor is full of people screaming already that they don't belonghere. I can only hope that they will be there and I can explain whathappened.

I hope you guysliked this chapter, if it's hard to understand Reader-chan is rightnow in the hospital being Baker Acted-or your country's equivalent,about the last two weeks.