Black and White✔✖

Joke :)

'Can I hang myself'

Worried looks

Hoards of laughter
'Calm down it was a joke'

Laughter

It was a joke

It's always just a good laugh

I criticise myself and laugh, so others laugh with me

It's just a joke

Just like me

Just like this continuous smile on my face

Just like the cuts on my skin

Just like the tears waiting to fall

Just like the quiver of my lip as my body trembles

It's all for a good laugh

Its all just a joke

Its funny, right?!

Come on now!!

Laugh at me!!

Laugh at my pain

Laugh at the pathetic state I'm in

Laugh, god dang it!! Laugh!

Joke about my hurting heart

Or my scattering thoughts

Or my frown that I let show

Or my vulnerability

Are you laughing??

Isn't that why I "Joke" about everything

Isn't that why when I was crying I smiled and said 'got you!'

Isn't that why when I was trembling with sadness I laughed and said 'Why wouldn't I be fine? I'm always okay'

So when I say I wanna die

Or when I 'Joke' about suicide and self-harm

Laugh

Just laugh at my not-so-funny joke

Cause that's how you see it

As

A

Joke

           

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This was kinda long, sorry