Aces

Chapter 12

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"Yes, I gave him like fifteen minutes ago." I hear Redhead voice trying to become conscious but my eyes refuse to open.

I groan annoyed because of it but then I peacefully just relax myself and take deep breathes before trying again because anything done in angry never gives a promising product. My eyes open like quater way so I take advantage of it gazing at as much as I can which wasn't enough but I know now that I was on a bed with sheets up to my waist and both my arms dead at my side.

I close my eyes again turning my head back and forth then try again and successfully I was because they open and thank mercy the blinds were closed or I'd just never open them again though the headache hit me ten fold.

"Well he'll be staying with me so I need to know what I am dealing with Keith." Keith? As in 101, my brother Keith. Man it's been so long since I've called him by his name much less think it. Due to his many spot I just call him 101 instead of the whole name as the movie with the dogs and their many spots. I am not saying my brother is a dog, just his many spots reminds me of that show and the cartoon too which is my favourite movie to watch and cartoon too.

I sit up blinking a few times to clear my blurry vision but as I do such action all my weight is place on my arms to bring me in a seating position which result in my arms shaking due to not being able to manage. Nonetheless I did get into the position I want to see redhead back turn to me but I just roll my eyes asking God above why it had to be him the first thing I see.

It's like torture!

Though I don't know how torture feels but he's the last person I wish to see but he so happen to be the first, what the fuck kind of ironic shit is that. He remove the phone from his ear but still didn't turn around but instead sigh loudly roughly place both hands on his waist. He look like a father ready to scowl his child because of what he or she did but trying to calm down first, I just turn my head away playing a stubborn child as he begins to turn around to face me and I was too weak to even quickly situate myself back in bed and pretent like I was asleep so instead, stubborn child it is.

"Are you okay?" I gaze over my finger nails to indirectly tell him that one, his presence is not needed. Second, I'm ignoring him hence I don't want to talk to him and lastly, I'm still fucking hurt as a coccain addict who need his fix and can't get it especially when it's right in front of him.

He's in front of me but he ain't mine and won't ever be but the way he held me in the car as I break apart felt so good, I have never been held so fragile and careful before. My brother hug me and my bestfriend but not like he did, I felt safe and like I could take on the world for once but seeing him with that Chubby guy just shatter everything.

Hope!

I felt alone again when they show their affection in front of me because I didn't just see him and Chubby expressing themselves but I saw that again I'm not enough to keep anyone, to even be considered. I saw him leaving my arms in front of my eyes but then I realise that he wasn't even in my arms to begin with, he simply just wasn't mine but I enjoy our time together even though I wish greatly for more.

I have to let go of what's not mine!

"Arthur stop being childish and what the fuck is wrong with you!" He yell but I still ignore him waiting for him to leave me to drown in my misery and pain plus the pain of my headache. So I can pet talk myself to forget about all we had which was not much but to me it was more than anyone has ever given.

Even though I'm just bait to get the people he want to kill, I still for a minute think this was real, that someone actually found me worthy of their time, that we were just a cute couple vacating happily. I feel the bed drip but I still had my attention elsewhere so he doesn't see my pain and see my suffering, so he doesn't see the tears at its brim that with one blink and they flow over.