Loving my bsf// chase Hudson

Chapter thirty four

You looked at him and you kissed him. He kissed you back and you put your hand on his cheek. The kiss got more intense and you both pulled away. You looked down and blushed.
Drayke: so...
Y/n: if you want?
Drayke: before you say that can I tell you something?
Y/m: yes...
Drayke: I saw you leave with Brandon. I was scared he was going to do something so I followed you guys to the park. I stayed behind and I heard everything and saw some things. I don't want you to be in this relationship if you aren't happy y/n. I can't watch you kill your feelings like that.
Y/n: drayke I do wanna be in this relationship. We had an argument everybody has them right.
You looked at him waiting for a response.
Drayke: let's go get you cleaned up.
He got up and went into the bathroom. You followed and he started to clean your arm. While he was doing that you started to thing about why he didn't respond. Do either of you actually want this?
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Draykes pov
When I was cleaning her arm I started to think about if she actually wanted a relationship. Did I even want one? I love her so much in every way. She is so amazing but I just can't get the kiss between her and Brandon out of my mind. And then what she did to her arm... that's my fault. Ive kinda just been making her life worse ever since I got here.
Y/n: drayke?
Drayke: hmm?
I tried not to make eye contact but she lifted my face up so I had to.
Y/n: do you actually want this?
Drayke: I'm sorry I just I can't get everything out of my head. Ever since I came here I've just been messing things up.
She stayed silent and looked at me.
Drayke: you can't even really deny it either.
Y/n: drayke I love you so much you know that. Everybody has their issues. Me and chase had them. My mom and dad had them. It's not just with you these things happen.
Drayke: I'm sorry it just seems like you were so much better without me here.
Y/n: but the better question are you better being here.
Drayke: I don't know...
I sat down on the bed and looked down.
Y/n: so are you saying you regret this?
She walked over and bent down in front of me. She put her hands on my knees to keep balance.
Drayke: I love you with everything I have y/n. I don't regret a second of it. I just want what's best for you and makes you happy.
Y/n: what if you make me happy?
Drayke: I really don't think so mentioning today.
Y/n: if you don't want a relationship just say so drayke. It's not going to bother me.
Drayke: I do want one...
Y/n: are you actually sure?
Drayke: yes.
I looked at her and all I wanted to do was kiss her but I just couldn't. It felt like if I did I would mess something up.
Y/n: here let's just take a nap you need it.
End of POV
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I grabbed his hand and we laid in the bed. He wrapped his arms around me like usual but this time it felt different. It felt like he was holding on to every last bit of me. He fell asleep and I kissed his forehead. I pulled the blanket up and fell asleep too.
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When you woke up drayke was on his phone.
Y/n: I guess your getting the plane ticket.
You lost your smile and just looked at him.
Drayke: do you want me to?
Y/n: I want you to stay but you have to go home sometime right?
Drayke: hey I could pull a cody and drive down every weekend. It's only a 6 hour drive.
Y/n: are you getting it or not?
I didn't want him to leave because I knew we weren't on good terms.
Drayke: they don't have any for this week. The closest one I can get is for April 6th.
Y/n: just get the ticket. If you want I can get you a hotel so you aren't really around as much.
Drayke: But I like waking up knowing your right here.
I faked a smile because I still felt like he didn't really want this. Like he wasn't happy.
Drayke: what's on your mind?
Y/n: what do you mean?
Drayke: you faked that smile.
Y/n: I just feel like you don't really want a relationship.
Drayke: we aren't going to be just like we were. I wanna be better than that but it's gonna take time. It's not going to be perfect right away.
Y/n: yeah...
Drayke: hey... don't think about the what if's think about the what is.
He kissed me and I kissed back. I depend the kiss and he put his hands on my waist. I sat on his lap as he began to go to my neck. I took his shirt off and he took mine off. Just then I got a text from chase.
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Chase💜: close your curtains... I can see you about to fuck each other already.
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You looked over and saw chase on his bed. You forgot you were in the end of the bed so he could see you. You got up and closed the curtains. When you turned around drayke pinned you against the wall. You kissed him back and he picked you up. You wrapped your legs around him and he sat on the bed. You pushed him down and took his pants off. You layed on him and kissed him and he took off yours. Just then your phone vibrated again and it was Cody FaceTiming you.
Y/n: oh come on! You hopped off of drayke and answered the call. You layed the phone down and put a hoodie on. You layed down and drayke layed behind you enough to the point where he couldn't be seen.