Feelings

Betrayed

(sexual / inappropriate scenes beyond this point. please be wary :))

After eating my delicious cheese pizza, I head over to Nadine's 30 minutes before the game. I knock 3 times and wait for a minute. What's taking her so long? I grow impatient and finally see her tug at the door knob. The door swings open to reveal John?! I forgot he lives here! I'm shocked but happy to see him again today. Maybe he changed his mind.

"Hey Johnny Cake,"

"Hey Mia Bella,"Damn.

"Change your mind? About the game?"

"No I'm sorry.."

"It's okay don't be sorry!"

"Do you want to come in?"

"Yes please," He motions towards the inside of his house and I take a glimpse around. The house is beautifully decorated and the wooden floors are gorgeous!

"Wow John your house is so pretty!" I exclaim.

"Not as pretty as you,"

"What did you say?"

"Oh nothing.." weird. I could have sworn I heard him say something.

Nadine comes running down the stairs, head to toe in our school colors. Her hair is straightened and she has a green and purple beanie with her fringe sticking out of the front. Her shirt is tye dye: top half purple, bottom half green. She's wearing purple leggings and green track shoes. Geez she went all out.I only have ribbons and a t-shirt, otherwise that's it. I matched my shirt with black leggings and white slip on vans.

"OMG Bell your hair is so cute! I love your outfit!" Nadine squeals. She's the sweetest.

"Aww thank you Nade, I love your look!"

"Thank you!"

"Alright girls lets get going.." John adds, sounding really bored. I look up at him excitedly! He must be coming to the game! Nadine runs out the door, but I pause to talk to John. He looks confused at my sudden motions, but stops with me.

"Are you coming?"

"No, I'm dropping you off, my moms orders.." he explains, adding his cute smile and swinging the keys around his pointer finger. I love his smile so much. I don't know what it is with me.

"Aw okay," I add with a frown.

"I'm sorry Mia Bella, if it were soccer I'd totally go,"

"It's okay. I'll just have to take you to a soccer game then."

"I think i can fit that in," he winks then grabs my hand and walks me out. Him holding me makes me feel safe and protected. I know John would never like me, but i can't say I don't have feelings for him. I've heard lots of things about what he's done to girls before I got here and that fear lingers around me. I know we'll never date, but he makes little gestures and i'm scared to fall for him... more than I already have. I'm scared he's gonna use me like he supposedly did to all those girls in the past. I try to recollect myself as I walk out the doors. Maybe he's really changed like Nadine says?

Nadine makes me sit in the front because her "bothers driving is bad"Little liar. I should have never told her about my mini crush. She's been bothering me about it for a while. I'm scared she'll tell him, but she pinky promised not to so i'm trusting her on this one. I just met him recently, so there's no reason for me to make any moves, that's just not like me at all. I also don't want to get rejected. Another side of me also has feelings for Jace, but he's too quiet and reserved and won't let me in at all to tell me the littlest of things. But hopefully seeing him tonight will make everything better.

Once we arrive, I thank John for driving us and walk up to the fields with Nadine. I immediately try and find Jace, in hopes to wish him luck before the game. I spot him and call him over.

"Hey bell," he bellowed. He seems very tense and bothered. His pupils are very dilated and his hands are jammed into his jacket pockets. I'm not sure what's going on but I try to lighten the mood.

"Hey Jace!"  I babbled, trying to lighten his tense mood. Him and his uniform is kind of cute.He's staring at me, looking me up and down. I try ignore his weird actions and continue to try and make him happy.

"I just wanted to wish you luck tonight,"

"Oh thanks Bell. See you soon.."
he adds a wink then leaves... What the hell? I'm so uncomfortable by his actions, I don't know why he acted like that. Instead of his normal innocent eyes, they were looking me up and down, scanning my tight shirt.

I walk back to Nadine who's helped herself to a few snacks. She's got herself a pretzel, gatorade, and chips. She's too funny.

"Hey Nad?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you think I could stay the night? My dad isn't home and I'm afraid to stay alone tonight,"

"Of course! You can sleep in the guest room!" I'm happy I get to stay over Nadine's, that's honestly a humongous relief. I didn't want to admit my fear of staying at my new house, but i'm glad I did. I feel a sudden tap on my shoulder and I see Jace again! He looks even more tense than before .. I start to feel my body shake, in fear?

"Hey Jace, I thought the game was starting..."

"Yeah it is but I have to show you something really important first.." I feel a flush of excitement and relief as I follow him into the school. Once were inside, he grabs me by my hand and makes me run with him down the hall. He escorts me to the boys locker room and I notice something is up. Why would he bring me into the boys locker room? My mind fills with random thoughts until suddenly he grabs me firmly and starts kissing me roughly.. grabbing my hair and moving his hand up and down my back. I kept on pushing at his chest, not kissing him back. I feel betrayed...

"What the hell Ja-"

"Shut the fuck up!" he screamed. I am filled with immediate fear as I try to break away from his grip. He moved both of his hands down to mine to keep me from moving. His movements against me are firm and disgusting. Since I haven't kissed him back, he's scoffing and adding more force . I notice him pulling at his belt with one hand, leaving the other to hold my hands back and giving me a creepy smirk...

"Jace I don't want to do this.."

"I don't care,"What the hell? My immediate reaction is to kick him in his area. He winced at the pain and let go of my hands, so I ran.  He chased me down the halls of the school, but I was so afraid I managed to make it outside and lose him. Tears are rolling down my cheeks like a river as I find the security officers at the football game and I run away.Far away. I start heading towards my house, my eyes watery and blocked with liquid. I don't know where to go at first, but then it hits me. I head home through my shortcut over the wooden bridge. I pack a couple outfits and things I may need for the weekend and head for the Vincent household...