Feelings

Two by Two

And plants a small kiss on my nose... wow... I feel a fire grow into my stomach over this small little kiss and he notices my reaction. He laughs and moves down to the level of my lips...

"Hey kids i'm back!" the nurse walks in. We immediately move away from each other and were now far apart. I would pay for the nurse to leave again, that's how desperate I am to feel his touch. I notice the time and offer to walk John back to his class, and we ironically have the same class. While walking I feel his eyes looking at me, but try to ignore it, even though I secretly love it.

"I guess we have world history together, Mia Bella,"he gushes. God I can't with the nickname Mia Bella. I know i'm 16 and I know I should stand my ground, but something about John is so much different than anyone I've ever met. He's seems so mad all the time but when he's around me he softens.. unless it's about Jace. Wait... why did he get mad at Jace for staring at me? Thoughts pass my mind but none of them add up so I ignore myself.

"mhm..." I answer as I knock on the door. The old teacher slowly walks up to the door and lets us both in. He instructs us to sit in the back.. next to each other. I look around the classroom and spot Jace in the second row next to another guy. His face looks saddened and he turns near me. I give him a little wave and frown. He shrugs and notices John next to me. He gives me a stare of fear and turns around quickly. I look over to John who's head is down on his desk. He doesn't look up when it's time to grab our books so I get him one.

As I grab two books Jace comes up to me.

"Hey, are you still coming to the game tomorrow night, you know, after everything?" he stutters, very nervously. I can't believe he's nervous around me, I never thought any boy would be nervous around me. I don't feel like someone people are afraid of.

"Yeah of course. Do you mind if I bring Nadine?"

"No not at all," he smiles then heads back to his seat. I walk over to my seat to still find Johns head on the desk.

"Hey John? I got you a book," I murmur. I'm afraid of what he's gonna say because he was in such a good mood and now he's not. I wish I could communicate better with him, but i'm not good at that.

"Thanks, Bella."

"Are you okay?"

"No,"

"What happened?"

"Nothing just don't worry about me,"

"Why wouldn't I worry about you, you're a close friend of mine,"

"It's nothing okay?" Why is he such a mess! One second he's sweet then next thing i'm doing absolutely nothing and he's upset.

"I... I don't.. okay," I answer quickly and open my book to end the conversation. If only I could communicate better.. If only he could tell me what's up...

"Mia Bella if only you knew how I felt.."