The Words I Never Said

Maybe I Love You

I love you,
those words roll off the tongue in a similar way to the words "Kiss me you fool"
either way at the end you end up with a smile on your face,
but this kind of love the unreciprocated love
is painful
No, I'm not your type.
I'm not an jerk,
I don't treat women like garbage
I don't play games.
Maybe that's my issue is that I don't play games,
maybe i should play more more games?
Either way I'm not a jerk
You only like guys who play sports.
Im not that,
there's not much else to say about that.
I'm not athletic,
only kinda funny.
But what if that's not enough anymore?
I don't care who I am.
I want to be what you want,
but it would mean losing myself in the process of loving you.
That would hurt.
How do you ever get the nerve to tell a close friend that you love them?
That you love every single little thing about them.
That their smile leaves you breathless.
You don't ever tell them?
This isn't a movie.
the friend hasn't been hiding the same feelings
You can try transferring or another way to get away,
but she always comes back in some way or form.
So we go back to the question,
how do you tell them that you love them?
That you've dreamt about how kissing them feels
Even woke up in a cold sweat reaching out for them like some sort of idiot
as if they would actually be next to you.

That you want to tell them how beautiful and perfect they are

You never will have the chance.

That when you see them it's one of the reasons you keep a smile on your face.

That you want to feel the softness of their hand against yours.

Here's the thing though,
you don't get that.
She doesn't love you back.
Maybe it's time You accept that.
There's no kind of love potion,
this is the real world.

You can't make somebody love you only dream that they actually do love you and that maybe in time they could learn to love you.

when it turns out
they don't feel the same way and never will.
So what do you tell them before you leave?
Do you just text a
"P.s I've loved you for almost 2 years now."
Yeah that would go over well.

There's no amount of words in the English dictionary that could craft a paragraph well enough to really explain how the pain of it all feels.

Maybe I'm just not good enough for you.
Maybe my brain and my mind love you
i can't convince myself out of it,