Wish I was good enough and my skin was thick and tough Rough enough to not allow negativity to saturate into my sieved thin layer of skin that I wished was as resilient as elephant skin.
Grab the blade Fixate the arm Horizontal neat line Norm.
Vertical if I like... Vertical just in case... Vertical if I need... Need to end it all.
Mental tormented torture. Your words spit at me like bullets in rage, bullets in fury, bullets in wrath. My brain does not have the capacity-I do not have the capacity to deal with this conflicted suffering going on in my mind and soul.
Save me Jesus save me. I want to be better but it won't let me.
It takes advantage of my weak state and leaves me functioning at a slow rate. It is more than depression and your vulgar verbal language.
It is something that weighs me the fuck down. Makes me frown Tilts my crown-my halo-
Hello?
Save me Jesus save me. I want to be better but it won't let me.
It leaves me crying days on end trying to figure out what is really wrong with me. Leaves me laying in bed, wrist dangling out the sheets admiring the beauty of the art displayed on my canvas of scars.
I am scarred Internally. Externally Wholly.
Why am I so distraught?
Swear my heart doesn't beat the same and maybe that's why I'm always in pain. Things won't ever be the same.
Grab the blade Fixate the arm Horizontal neat line Norm.
Vertical if I like... Vertical just in case... Vertical if I need... Need to end it all.
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