small mouth

kiss

josh's lips press against tyler's. tyler widens his eyes, then closes them. he doesn't kiss back, but he lets it happen. he doesn't think he kisses good. their kiss lasts a few seconds and josh pulls his lips away. tyler's eyes open again and he stares into josh's eyes for a moment. he has the courage to kiss josh. he doesn't, but he wraps his arms around josh tightly. josh hugs the brunette's back, letting out a sigh. "do you.. um.. like me back?" tyler asks in a quiet voice. josh unwraps his arms and looks at tyler. "that's why i kissed you, ty." he laughs and tyler grins, the brunette's cheeks exploding with salmon and heat. "..so what are we, then?" tyler mumbles shyly, his hand taking josh's.

"well.. tyler, i think we should wait a little before we get in a relationship." the red haired responds with a weak smile. "oh, okay." tyler says with no emotion, taking his hand off of the other boy's hand. tyler is really disappointed on the inside, though he showed no emotion. "well, the bell will ring in like, five minutes.. do you wanna head back to the cafeteria? or.." josh trails off, his eyes shifting around the room. "mhm," tyler answers and he and josh walk toward the door. they all the sudden hear running and squeaking, like the bottom of shoes against the school floor. they look out the door and see dallon and brendon running away, turning to the corner. "they heard everything.." tyler and josh laugh and they start to head to the cafeteria.

they reach their table after they enter and they sit down, all of their friends asking a million questions and asking tyler if he's okay. "guys, i'm fine!" tyler giggles when he feels someone's fingers tickling his neck. tyler and his friends had become close enough to the point where they call each other names and touch each other and hit each other like whiny babies.

the rest of the day flies by and soon, it's just josh and tyler in josh's room hanging out.

"hey, ty, i'm gonna add you to a group chat with our friends. is that okay?" josh asks his friend. "yeah, of course! that's okay," tyler responds, scrolling through his phone. soon, there's about a thousand notifications blowing up in his phone.

unknown number - yo, who is (xxx) xxx-xxxx, josh?

unknown number - yeah, dude? is it your boyfriend or something? lol

josh - haha, no.

josh - it's just tyler, guys.

unknown number - oh, so it *is* your boyfriend!

josh - shut it, brendon..

tyler - hey guys!

unknown number - oh, hey ty! it's sarah :)

tyler - okay! tell me all your names so i could rename your contacts please!

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brendon - so.. about you and josh in the empty classroom.

sarah - waaat? empty classroom?? what were u guys doing alone in an empty classroom??

josh - oh my-

tyler- don't make it sound bad like that! we were just talking.

brendon - yeah, apparently talking is confessing your love nowadays.

tyler - brendon, i swear to god

tyler blushes as he looks up from his phone and josh is staring at him. josh immediately turns his head away, unlocking eyes with tyler. tyler turns away, too, and he exits out of messages and turns off his phone. he turns to his notebook, where he is writing a song. it isn't about josh, it isn't about romance in particular. it's about blurryface and his past, in fact.

my name's blurryface and i care what you think.

wish we could turn back time to the good old days when our momma sang us to sleep, but now we're stressed out.

he isn't quite sure what to name it yet. he's thinking just blurryface as the title.

used to play pretend, give each other different names, we would build a rocket ship and then we'd fly it far away. used to dream of outer space, but now they're laughing at our face, saying "wake up you need to make money". yeah.

he remembers playing with zack with toy rocket ships and calling his brother some sort of nick-name like commander zack or pilot zack. tyler is thinking of making a band, since he doesn't want to just be a musician himself alone. he'd thought of naming the band with pilot or pilots in it. "heya, ty, what'cha writing?" josh asks, scooting closer to his friend. "what?! um, nothing." tyler lies, hiding the writing with his hand. "come on! is it your diary?" the red haired jokes. "no way! it's a song!" tyler blurts and smacks his hand over his lips.

josh looks at him for a moment and smiles. "who's it about, hm?" josh says, leaning closer to tyler. tyler puts his hand on josh's face and pushes it away, "not you, genius!" the brunette laughs. josh scoffs and snatches the notebook and reads it, holding tyler down. "stop, josh!!" tyler squirms, anxiety roaming in his chest. tears prick his eyes as he slowly starts to feel weaker. "who is blurryface, ty?"

his vision starts to fade, and so do his small breaths coming from his small mouth.