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Everything flashed before Misha's eyes, as things were gone just as fast as they had started... The feelings were gone just as fast as they had begun and portrayed awareness upon this man. He had this dream as if to tell him what his real true feelings were. This dream this total nightmare might he call it- Was about losing his wife, which was something that he couldn't deny petrified the hell out of him.

He had just realized his feelings... His love for Jensen Ackles after one night of terrifying sleep. He didn't want to leave Victoria- Sure he loved her but there was no denying his feelings for the green-eyed man.... But he didn't really want everyone to realize he was gay... They would think that he was only with Victoria to cover it up but that just wasn't true... Well to him at least it wasn't.

But that definitely wasn't how it looked- and things were going to become different that was for sure because now that Misha knew what these feelings were it would be impossible for him to push them down... Not only because he had finally come to know what these feelings were but also that they were feelings he didn't really want to push down...

But then against he didn't want others to find out about his feeling either... Especially not Jensen. The raven-haired man did everything for everyone else in life and this was just another one of those things... He knew that there was no way in hell that he was about to ruin Jensens life...

Misha knew that his feelings just weren't that important... Then again this decision only made him realize how much he actually cared about Jensen- After their almost two years of knowing one another and their time spent alone together the feelings were just there... And boy had it been some of the best years of his life...

"Are you ok?" His wife questioned as he woke up panting... Not only was he sleepy but also flustered not knowing how the hell to get out of this... How the hell not to tell her.

"J-Just a bad dream," He explained getting out of bed and heading toward the bathroom.

"Do you want me to come to?" She questioned with a smirk getting up as well. "You do owe me,"

And that was how Misha ended up late for work forgetting all about his feelings for Jensen as he realized he loved tow people at once- Oh God he had totally fucked up... What the hell was he going to do now? I love him... The thought played over in Misha's mind over and over again. As he just couldn't help but believe that this emotion was real. Can I? The question got stuck in Misha's head for what felt like an eternity.

"I love you, Jens," Danneel whispered against the blonde man's lips.

"I love you too," He whispered back neither of them seems to notice that Misha had made his way over to them, as he cleared his throat causing them to break apart.

"I'm glad I caught you... I just wanted to thank the both of you again for having me over the other night... It really meant a lot," the raven-haired man thanks as he never met their eyes.

"Oh yeah it really wasn't any trouble at all," the red-head smiled.

But Misha knew that was a complete and utter lie... But decided to ignore it faking a smile. "Yeah, it was really no problem... How did things go last night?" Jensen asked catching Misha by his thoughts.

The raven-haired man was beyond perplexed, he couldn't even think straight. His heart was sunken to the floor, the tears trying to cloud his eyes at the sight of Jensen happy with someone else... In love with someone else...

Now that he knew his feelings it was almost like torture for him- As he wanted nothing more than to just let his feelings run free, but he knew that he couldn't... And a part of him still wanted to be with Victoria- Still loved Victoria, but this man in front of him was just so perfect....