Dating my best friend

One Night...

Eight days after the meet

We were texting one night and I noticed it was being a lot more flirtatious than usual. We do it usually as a joke because people started with shipping us before. Then out of nowhere he asked, "How do you think it would be if we dated?" I am at Los Rios with my mom and I start freaking out. My mind was all over the place, even though I was at Los Rios I needed my Cinnamon Toast crunch, I was overthinking by asking myself, what does this mean, or does this even mean anything, what do I say, what if I say the wrong thing? That is all my internal voices speaking, but what my thumbs said were, "This is weird to say, but I would say if it were to work, we wouldn't have to change..or if it didn't end up working we still have to be close." After I sent that message I was so nervous of what he would say. He responded with, "Yeah I think it would be fine, are you saying we're basically dating?" My internal voices shouting back and forth at each other and I just don't know what to say  so I just respond, "haha."

After that we were just confused texting for hours realizing that we have swim practice at 6am the next morning. He then tells me that there was something he wanted to say and it will take a while, but it is nothing bad. He then told me not to freak out. Are you kidding me?!?! Telling me that you are going to tell me something and that it is going to be  a while, and then tells me to not freak out. My thumbs type, "okay:)." My mom then comes into my room and she knows I have been stressing out about this for a while.

My phone is off. Screen facing towards me. I look up at my mom. I look down at my phone. I look back up to my mom and then there is a light in the corner of my eye. I see a paragraph...oh Cinnamon Toast Crunch.  I read the paragraph and it was fine until the last sentence, "You had also said that you had searched for that website, you didn't stumble across it but I don't know." He sent more, but that is what stuck out to me the most. He sent that at 10:31pm. I am screaming at my mom , "he saw the texts" and "he saw that I looked up the website!" I was doing that for about five minutes. Then I finally responded to him at 10:38pm. I basically said how I have been confused if I have liked him. He then was telling me how he thought he liked me sometimes too, dialed back on the pukey emoji, and how he didn't know how he was going to tell me he read those messages. I really thought I deleted everything, but now I am so glad I didn't because then we became a thing.