Dating my best friend

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We waited a week to tell everyone...

That is not long at all, but it was because we were on break. The first person I told was Ciara. She was so surprised, she thought it was a joke. I kept telling her it wasn't, so then I showed her my texts with him because she is my buddy. She would see red hearts and be like "awwww" and then she said, "Ya'll are going to get married!" I just laughed.

I then told Angelina, I was kind of scared of the reaction that I would get from her. I didn't want to be the friend that took their friend's crush away, but I made sure I wasn't because I kept asking her if she liked Dakota and her answer would be the same every time, "Yes/No, but if he asked me out I would say yes." When I told her she didn't seem happy for me at all, so I had to make sure and ask if she still liked him. She said no.

Out of the Squad Grace and Halle were the first to know because we knew that Will would probably tell people. If we told Alyssa, she would probably tell Will.

One problem I faced in the beginning was jealousy. I thought that Halle liked Dakota or the other way around and I got scared. I wanted to tell him, but I was afraid he wouldn't take it seriously. At first he didn't and it bothered me because I told him that was the reasoning for not wanting to tell him. I don't like being like other girls that are jealous, but my feelings and opinions matter and I wanted to share with him. I told Halle and she was more understanding. All of that is gone now though because I then realized the way she is with him, she is with everyone. My friends still think Halle likes him, but I don't worry about it, until there is something to worry about. She helped me with this process a lot and I love her so much. Grace helped me a lot too.

Literally everyone was accepting except one person and that was Angelina, who was my friend. She told Dakota she did not support us. I asked if that was true, or if it was to get back at him, she responded, "I do not support you guys and I never will." It was surprising the way she handled things. I look back at it all and it started when Dakota and I became a thing. It started by her just calling Dakota annoying for no reason, he was doing nothing wrong, but she made him think that. That eventually blew over. Then texted both of us on how she wants to lose weight, so we said exercise or eat healthier. She did not like our advice and made sure Dakota knew that. Us three had a group chat to plan on going to ice-skate for a little Christmas get together. She wanted to invite Will Andrews, the guy that everyone liked last year in drama, to go with us because she liked him. Dakota was like he already denied you, and I just said go for it invite him, but don't make us do it for you. A couple days later, what does she do, she asks Dakota to do it for her. He told me this and I will admit I jumped over the line to text her not to do what I exactly said not to. Then she didn't respond to me. She responded to Dakota by saying something like, "Can I not tell you something without both of you knowing?" He sends me a screenshot of that and I respond to Dakota, "I'm sorry." She has not responded to me or him in days, so I was wondering if she was not going to go with us Ice-skating. One day she said she wanted to meet up with us in the morning before class. Basically said that our friendship made her feel like shit. I was laughing the whole time because everything she was saying was honestly just pointless. She said that we made her feel awful in situations and I say, "Name those situations." It took her a while and she said the stupidest answer that could've ever been said, "Oh well hmmm let me see. I was thinking about them all last night." I am laughing my ass off because the way she said things and she doesn't know how to prove a point, except from choosing things that have happened two months before she told us all of this. Yes I was laughing, but I realized Dakota wasn't.

Later that night she basically said that our friendship made her want to die and that God blahblahblahblah. Hey if what she says over texts she said in person I would pay more attention. She did not bother me, she did not deserve my time, but what she did do was make Dakota ask me all the time, "What did I do wrong?" I kept repeating and repeating to him it is not you, she wants you to think that. Do not let her win. One night we were texting about it and I wanted talk it out if he needed to, but he kept asking that and I got so frustrated to the point I was crying. My mom came into my room and I explain that she didn't get to me personally, but she got to him and that got to me. She was hurting him and it was so frustrating, he wouldn't listen to me saying that none of it is his fault. I was so upset with myself that I was crying over this because she was winning if I did. She is not important to cry over. He finally came to a conclusion and understand what I was saying. He said he talked to his mom about it, and I was so grateful he did. We agreed to try not to talk about it anymore.

Instead of going Ice-skating we went to stars and strikes with Tj, Ciara, Halle, and Grace.  Will and Alyssa did not go that time either. We still had fun though. Oh and because of the whole situation I got to keep Angelina's gift which were really cute scrunchies and bath bombs, so that was a major plus. Ciara noticed one of the scrunchies because I told her and she said, "nice scrunchie" aghh I love her so much. I texted my mom that we had 5 bath bombs from when we were going to give them to her. I then said, "One down, four more to go." Yeah that's right I used every damn bath bomb and I did not feel guilty about using any of them.