I'm back (editing)

My little sister is gone

^Pic of Lucas above

Lucas's pov:
After my slutty sister left the kitchen crying after my mum slapped her, I just want to leave the house. It really surprised me to see my mother touch my sister. Ive been the only one who hurts her and my mum just usually watches. When I saw my mum hit my sister something in my stomach turned, but I chose to ignore it.

I called all my football friends to see if they wanted to hang out and of course they all agreed. We were all meeting at Logan's house because his parents are out for a couple of days and there's alcohol.

Like come on, how can I turn down hanging out with the boys and free alcohol?

Hanging around with them always manages to take my mind off shit, especially when I don't want to think about it and want to clear my head. Hanging out with them is a good way I use to distract myself.

While at Logan's my mind kept drifting off to what happened today and what I did to her on all the other days before that. What is happening to me? Why do I feel so guilty?

Few hours later
It was getting late, I said bye to all the guys and headed home hoping my sister made dinner because im hungry. Usually she has a glass of water waiting for me to help me get sober, knowing I'll be a bit drunk and tipsy when I come back from hanging with the boys. For someone who's a worthless shit, she's pretty useful when it comes to things like that.

She knows mum would get angry if she saw me drunk. Skylar also knows I would blame it on her if I get in trouble and punish her, so she's learned to be prepared. she's weak and scared. She cant even defend herself. How can I have a sister like that?

Having her is one of the biggest mistakes my parents ever made. Its her fault that we no longer have the perfect family. Because of her my parents got a divorce, well thats what mum told me anyways, but I do know my life was perfect before she came in it. I always wanted a sibling when I was small, now I regret it.

When I get home, I go into the kitchen seeing nothing was prepared. I get myself some water and headed up to my sister's room to ask why dinner wasn't ready.

I knocked on her door, but there was no reply which was weird, she would normally answer straight away knowing if she didn't, she would be punished. I knock again and again shouting her name to answer the fucking door. I was really starting to get pissed. I guess someone's getting a punishment today. Oh my god why ain't she answering the bloody door.

My mom came angrily towards me asking why im shouting. I roll my eyes and tell her Skylar wasn't answering the door. My mum got annoyed and opened the door to see her room was empty.

Her clothes were gone, her books were gone, everything was gone and she was nowhere to be found. I started to get worried and I dont know why and so did my mum. I hated this feeling and I don't know why I'm getting it over someone like her.

I walked over to her desk and saw a note. It was addressed to me and my mum. I called my mum over and read it.

I finished reading it and me and my mum were in tears. It was all my fault, I was a horrible brother to her and treated her like crap, instead of protecting her. What the fuck is wrong with me?

I did love her. I still do but I hid it because when we were younger our parents got a divorce and my mum blamed it on Skylar. I was young so I believed my mum and started treating my only sister like she meant nothing, when in fact she meant the world to me.

I went to bed and I couldn't sleep at all not knowing if my baby sister was okay. All night all I did was twist and turn. I couldn't sleep...

It was the morning and I was hoping it was all a dream and that Skylar would come back. I was waiting for her all day. A day turned to 2 days. 2 days turned to 3. 3 days turned to 3 weeks. I now know she wont come back. I can only hope one day she will come back and forgive me.

While Skylar is I dont know where, I completely changed. I stopped sleeping with girls, I would talk and hang with my friends less and started to shut people out. All I wanted was my baby sister...