I'm back (editing)

I have to go back

2 years later
Im the happiest I have ever been. My life actually feels normal. I feel loved. I feel wanted. I feel like I belong, like I'm apart of something. I feel as if I'm important and I love it. I don't want this feeling to ever go away. Anyways let me catch you up with my life...

After many attempts of convincing and begging, Kelsey finally decided to give Aidan a chance. Yes, I'm the one who got them two together. Hm, maybe I should be a cupid. Im getting off track. Anyways, kelsey and Aidan have been dating for about 4 months.

Everything has been going amazing for them. They are so cute together and apart of me wants that in my life, but instead I hide all of my emotions and come off as emotionless. Only my dad and friends see the normal me, others see me as an emotionless bitch.

Me and the guys decided to form a real gang a year ago and I'm the boss.

My gang is built around trust and loyalty. We are a family. We are the biggest, strongest and most feared gang in the world, called the serpents. Our gang is also known as the assassins because we can kill a whole gang without people realizing and we are extremely sneaky.

We consist of 150 assassins, 10 trainers who are famous for being strong and experienced, 50 hackers/ tech people, 75 people who check our shipments and 35 people who do other jobs. Our gang in total has around over 300 people and keeps growing.

I love my gang and wouldn't trade it for the world. Everyone in the gang are friends. We all have a strong connection with each other and I know I can tell them anything. This allows us to work well together, making us a powerful gang.

^ this is a tattoo every single member of the gang has, but mine is different.

^ this one is mine its different to show I'm the boss and not an ordinary member.

Both tattoos have a serpent, but instead of a blade mine is a black rose. You see my tattoo could be anything as long as it has a serpent in it.

Having the black rose has a meaning. Black roses symbolize death. I've killed many people in life.

Black roses also represent farewell and vendetta. After I kill someone, I would leave a black rose to say goodbye or as a sign of revenge.

Many people know if they see a black rose, its from me and fear will struck in their eyes. It brings me happiness to see fear. No, im not crazy. Okay, maybe a little bit.

Black roses represent sadness. When I used live with my mum and brother, I was always depressed and something else happened a year ago, which almost ended me, but something or someone bought me back.

The rose shows I survived and things get better. It shows I got through it and I will get through every obstacle that gets thrown my way.

I got home with my friends coming back for the HQ and I got a phone call from my 'brother'. I answer the call getting angry why he was calling me.

It better be important, he calls me almost everyday since I left crying and moping, asking me to come back, but stopped after a year.

He told me our mum was sick and was at the hospital and she apparently wants me back for senior year.

I dont know how to feel about this. I feel kinda heartbroken and depressed. I know I hated my mother, but she was still my mum. No matter how much I hate her it wont change the fact she gave me life and that we share the same DNA.

I told the guys to pack their shit and that we are going back to my old home town that I thought I would never return to...