lost kisses ♡ goodguyfitz

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Cam kissed me. Me. The quiet girl that merely watched from the background. The kind girl who was so afraid of the world, that she huddled in one place in New York and never left.

Cam was the person I always knew, deep down, that I needed.

"Cam I-" I searched for the right words to explain how I felt and did my best to not sound fucking stupid.

"Charlotte, it's ok, you don't have to say anything right now. It's a lot to take in-" I looked him dead in the eyes.

"I don't want to lose you either." My voice was shaky and small. I watched as his whole face lite up in lights and a smile had promptly returned to where it belonged.

"Thank you, Charlotte." I have him a questioning look as his head turned back to the sunset. His arm returned to around my shoulders.

"For what?" I smirked as I also gazed back to the sunset.

"Being friends with Jaren so I was able to meet you." He smiled, but his eyes never left the sky. My heart raced as those words left his lips.

Oh how I adored him.

"I'm thankful Jaren dragged me on this trip." I breathed in the fresh air and realized I was happy.

I was happy.

And with that, my night was complete.

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After my eye opening night with Cam, we grabbed some dinner and headed back to the Air bnb.

As we walked out of the Uber, he put his hand in mine. "You're so special Charlotte, you have no idea."

I looked down at the ground to hide my flared up cheeks. I then rubbed his hand with my thumb to show that I appreciated it.

When we walked inside to the living room, we were met with a bunch of confused faces on the boys.

Can then whipped his hand away from mine, probably hoping nobody saw. That almost made me feel a ting of upsetness, not going to lie.

"Where have you two been? We haven't seen you guys all day!" Eric was the first to speak, and all the boys nodded in agreement.

Cam rolled his eyes, and laid out a sarcastic smile. "We just hung out all day at the Aboretom, watched the sunset, and grabbed some dinner. Why do you guys care so much, huh?" He trotted into the kitchen, grabbed a beer and sat down on the couch next to Jay.

"We don't care, we were just wondering." Eric sounded like an asshole, but it was quite funny.

"I care." Jaren raised his hand as I took a seat next to him.

"I know you do, dingbat, but the rest of us don't. Except for maybe John."

This conversation then lasted 15 minutes. 15 whole fucking minutes. 

I couldn't believe i've lasted this long with them.

Someone turned on The Office, and everyone seemed to die down a bit. There were some quiet conversations, some had passed out, and others were on their phones or watching the show.

I was scrolling through Instagram when Jaren leaned over to me.

"Hey, how was your day? Do you want to go up to the bedroom and lay down so we can talk, I'm drained." He suggested as he took the last swing out of his water. I nodded in agreement and began to stand up.

I looked over at Cam, who was already watching me. As Jaren and I walked away, I gave him a wink.

He smirked back, and looked down.

He was the cutest.

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After Jaren and I got ready for bed, we both crawled under the covers.

"So..." He wiggles his eyes brows. I already knew where this was going so I scoffed.

"Don't scoff at me! I want to know what happened with Cam! I deserve to know."

I rolled my eyes and gave him a playful smile. "Yeah, yeah. I know you do."

I then told him everything that has happened, from the very begging. From that day at Pax, where Cam was stressing out.

Jaren was at a loss for words.

"But the thing is J, I know that he's upset about other stuff too. It wasn't just that he was afraid of losing me." I began to worry, but Jaren began to rub my back.

This was one of the things that we always did. I realized one day that Jaren's touch had this calming effect on me, and I was totally relieving when he would rub my back.

"He will tell you. I know Cam. Ever since he laid his eyes on you, he's been a much happier person. His past isn't all that great, and I think your the start of something so positive in his life." He didn't stop rubbing my back, even for a second.

"D- do you really think that J?" He smiled at me.

"I really do."

That was the end of it, and I fell asleep to him rubbing my back.

IM BACK! updates r going to be regular again! I'm sorry this ones shorter, it's just a filler chapter lol