you again | nct doyoung & jaehyun

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jaehyun pov

"well i guess the safest thing to do is to hire an agency." dasom,the head of marketing said.

"yeah,none of us can really do this advertising thing on our own." i said.

"are we really not gonna hire new people for marketing?" taeyong complained. "i mean it's just the three of us."

"which is why we're hiring an agency." dasom said.

"fine noona,i guess we'll settle for that." taeyong said.

"i'll look for one and update you guys." dasom said concluding our meeting.

"who's that?" taeyong said peeking at my phone.

"no one." i quickly put my phone in my pocket. i was stalking y/n on instagram but it seems like she put it on private again,she never accepted my follow request.

"i bet it's y/n again." taeyong said.

"no it's not." i defended.

"pfft okay keep telling yourself that." he scoffed. "2 girlfriends later and you're still not over her."

i looked down. he's right. 2 girlfriends that didn't last very long,2 different women i thought would make me happier,2 years later that i still haven't gotten over her.

"what are you gonna do if she has a boyfriend now?" taeyong asked.

"she probably has." i said sadly.

"that's your karma then." taeyong said before leaving the pantry.

karma. yes that's what it is. this is what i get for hurting the person i loved most. if given the chance i swear to god i will love her right.

"break time's over." i mumbled to myself before getting back to my desk.

if i had to count how many times a day y/n pops into my mind i'd say 100 isn't enough. it wasn't always like this though, i broke up with her. within the first few months i didn't think about her at all. i partied,dated other women,went on with my life,i didn't give a fuck until i went on another date yet again with another woman that i didn't have anything in common with. never the same connection. it was then that i realized i missed y/n more than i wanted to admit. she was always there. took care of me and loved me but i got too comfortable and became toxic towards her. no i didn't sleep with anyone while i was with her but i admit i did flirt with a couple girls then break up with her then come back to her cause i know she was always available for me. this went on for 3 years and she'd still love me the same until that final break up that i finally broke her and she never believed another word i said. can i blame her?no i only blame myself.

it didn't really sink in to me how much i really loved her until i lost her. i never realized i'd be losing such a big chunk of my heart when she walked away. i've told her so many times that i've changed but it never really meant it until now.

i looked at a photo of us that was saved from my phone. she's smiling from ear to ear and i had my arms around her. i'd give anything to have that back. i want her back that's all i can think about right now. da eun,just her,all of what she is.

"found one!" dasom yelled from her table. "i'll set up a meeting with them. it's A&C."

"can we afford them though?" taeyong asked.

"we're gonna have to find out." dasom said.