Loving the Undead (Reader X OC Zombie)

Chapter 8: A Risky Plan

When you and Ryder arrived back home, you were still sad about the event that happened before. You managed to calm down on the way, but you still weren't feeling better.
You sat in the couch and held your face with both hands, still filled with shame.

"Y/N, you aren't responsible for what happened earlier...Please don't beat yourself up...",said Ryder, while he crouched down in front of you.

You didn't respond...You wanted to be alone right now. Ryder couldn't help you now in this situation. You need to deal with it alone right now.

"I will go outside and fix my motorcycle...Some parts are damaged, because of the crash earlier. In the meantime, try to keep yourself busy, alright? You might feel better then. Remember...noone is blaming you for what happened before."

You took your hands away from your face and nodded. Ryder took your toolkit and went outside. Once the main door was closed, you slowly let yourself fall on your back on the couch. Reminiscing about, what happened before. These nightmares are messing with your head. You almost lost someone important, because of the behaviour, that you expressed towards Ryder earlier. You decided to follow Ryder's suggestion to keep yourself busy, so you turned on the TV and began watching. The current channel wasn't interesting you and you wanted to switch, but you still didn't know, where the remote was. You looked around the room, until you saw it lying under the TV screen. You facepalmed yourself and picked up the remote...

"Failure over failure...Stupid me...",you said to yourself. You sat back down and switched your TV channel. Every channel you switched to wasn't of interest to you...Until you saw an news channel. You couldn't quite believe your eyes. There was a living human on the show and you were shocked.

"Wait, i'm not the only one alive? There are people alive?"

Your shocked expression turned into happiness. So you weren't the only one left alive after all. Is there still hope left?

"After recent discoveries at a broken town in our surroundings, we found out, that we located another survivor of the apocalypse. Y/N, the daughter of the family L/N has been located and will soon be collected to take her into safety."

Now your smile faded...Even though you should be happy, that you will be able to leave this place, you weren't... You knew what would happen, if you would go now. You would leave Ryder behind...They won't let him go with you. If they see him, they will kill him. You wanted to take him with you, but you couldn't...It would be too dangerous. What if he gets hurt? What if they do kill him? What would you do without Ryder? You can't leave now, can't you?

"Tomorrow morning, a truck will arrive to pick Y/N up. Y/N, if you are still alive and are watching this message, please pack your belongings, find a safe place and wait until our arrival."

You turned off the TV. So it was certain, you would have to leave Ryder tomorrow morning. You didn't want to, but do you have another choice? You have to go with them...They won't turn back now. Feeling hurt by the feeling of not being able to see Ryder again made your eyes go watery and you started crying. What would Ryder think of this? Speaking of which, he opened the front door and looked down at you, noticing your fragiled state. He walked towards you and sat down beside you.

"Y/N...are you okay? Please...talk to me. You won't feel better, if you don't tell anyone. What's the matter?"

"I....i....i'm..", you couldn't form your words, the shock and pain emitting through your emotions making you unable to speak properly.

"Hey...i'm here...You will be okay. Come on, tell me, what's bothering you..."

You swallowed the heavy lump in your throat and looked at him anxious. You really didn't want to tell him, he wouldn't like it...But you can't keep this a secret, you need to tell him now...