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Dallyboy~Scars

Trigger warning! Talk of an eating disorder, and talk of self harm! Neither is being done explicitly in this pic, but they are highly mentioned. Someone even talks about how they did what they did! So warning to anyone who has Self harm/ED Triggers!

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Dally never had anyone to talk to. Neither did Pony, I guess that's how they got together in the first place, two boys who needed love, and comfort. It never started with Actually liking each other, it started with Just talking for the hell of it, both glaring at each other and making wise cracks... Then it turned into so much more...

They have been dating for 2 months. Neither of them have undressed in front of the other, because Dally didn't want Pony to see his scars... And Pony just didn't want to make Dally uncomfortable. Pony was just really confused... Because Dally has had sex with girls before.. that means he must have taken off his clothes... Pony was just always worried that Dally just... Didn't want him.

"Dallas. .. Why haven't we done anything yet..." Pony speaks up softly one night while they sit leaning against the headboard. Dally takes a deep but steady breath and look over.

"I don't know... I'm just..." Dally stumbles over his words not knowing what to say as Pony looks at him with Curiosity, but also with a bit of worry in his eyes.

"What is it? Do you not want me? Is that what it is..." Pony says sitting up and crossing his legs and looking down at the bed, feeling a sudden feeling of anger course through him. Dally looks shocked.

"No! Of course I do!" He says sitting up and putting his hand on Points shoulder, just for him to move again so Dally isn't touching him, when Pony looks up at Dally, Dally looks hurt.

"Yeah right! You haven't even taken your pants off around me!" Pony says shaking his head. He goes to get off the bed, when Dally quickly grabs his Hands pulling him back. Pony protests, but Dally doesn't care, he pulls him back on the bed with pleading eyes.

"Pony stop! Please, wait I... You just don't... You don't know some stuff..." He says biting his lip. Pony looks at Dally giving him the benefit of the doubt.

"What don't I know Dallas? You... You trust me don't you?" Pony asks moving a bit closer, and putting his hand on Dallys upper arm. Dally nods and looks down.

"If... Just stay here okay?" He say standing up, Pony looks at him with confusion in his eyes. Dally takes off his shirt and, Pony is suprised.

"Dal... I'm sorry you don't gotta do this I shouldn't have..." Pony starts.

"No. It's okay... I live you, and I trust you..." Dally says walking over a little closer. That's when Pony notices the sight of bone through Dallys skin.

"Dal... How.. how much do you weigh?" Pony asks looking at Dally. Dally gulps and looks down rubbing his hand son his jeans.

"I'm, uh, im not 100% sure but... I know that I'm underweight... People don't notice because I wear layers and stuff..." Dally says looking down. Dally then takes a deep breath and starts taking off his jeans he looks up at Pony as his jeans fall, revealing White, and red scars going across his thigh, there is even a word... "Dumb" on his thigh. Dally starts breathing quickly and looks down.

"Oh... Oh baby..." Pony says getting up and walking over, pulling him into a hug, he plays with Dallys hair and they sit down on the bed as Dally calms down.

Ponyboy trails his fingers across each scar. He runs his hands across Dallys chest and stomach loving the fact that he can finally feel his skin.

"I... I have Anorexia... Uh. I was diagnosed with it from a young age, but I never got help for it... I've never told anyone other than Darry, And Tim. Tim only knows cuz we fight sometimes and he has to patch me up afterwards, and he noticed how skinny I was... Darry knows because I needed someone to talk to, and he noticed I never at when i was here..." Dally started explaining. Pony looked up at him.

"Uh... I'm sorry for asking, but what exactly IS anorexia... I mean I, I know it causes people to lose weight, and it's not healthy... I just don't exactly know." Pony says looking up at Dally and he kisses Dallys stomach. Dally smiles wide, loving how it feels to have someone love his body.

"Anorexia, and yes I've freaking memorized the definition, is an emotional disorder characterized by an obsessive desire to lose weight by refusing to eat. I don't eat... Well, I do considering I'm still alive, but I barley eat... Sometimes I go weeks without having any food..." He says gulping and watch Pony think.

"Okay... Uh.. can I.. can I help at all?" Pony asks looking at Dally like he NEEDS to help. Dally wants to say no, to say that there is no way that he'll ever eat, but instead he nods.

"Y-Yeah... Uh... I need to eat more... But I don't want to. I... I want to not eat but I know I have to. I know that i need to do it." Dally says pulling his knees up.

"Alright... I'll help you alright? I will." Pony says nodding, more to himself than Dally. Dally smiles. Finally he had someone to help him.

"Around last year, I started cutting... It just happened when I was in pain. I heard some girl talking g about it, and I tried it to see what it would be like... The rush... The amazing feeling right afterwards... It was great... And then... I got addicted to that feeling. I got addicted to seeing the lines form. That's why I scratch my arm so much... It leaves red lines.. when I did that" he points at the word dumb on his thigh "I couldn't walk for a freaking week. I had to stay at Tim's because it hurt so damn much afterwards.." Dally finishs talking. He sighs like a boulder has been lifted off of his shoulders. Pony boy looks up at him sad, tears in his eyes.

"Don't cut anymore. Please. I know it's hard... I do... But please try not to do it anymore" Pony says looking Dally in the eyes. Dally nods.

"I promise. I'll try my hardest not to.." and he does. From then on whenever he gets an urge to self harm he goes to Pony. Pony will hold him, and make sure he doesn't do it. And Pony talks to Darry asking for help, to help Dally with his Anorexia. Dally eats a meal a day a month, then moves on to two a day, and soon he's Eating three. He sometimes still breaks, he started himself for a while, untill pony notices and gets him back into line, sometimes Dally relapses, but Pony never gets mad. Because relapses are bound to happen.

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Ian 🖤

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