The Tragedy of Comedy (Arthur/Joker x Main Character)

11: No Matter What

Oh my god....

Is this really happening...?

I feel myself close my eyes,gently reaching my hands up and holding his cheeks,letting him kiss me.

I...I love him

I love him so much it hurts

After a couple seconds go by,we lightly pull away,our foreheads still connecting together.

"I-oh my~" he quickly gasps,backing up away from me,"Charlotte I-I'm so sorry I didn't mean to...."

He starts breathing heavily,pacing around the apartment with his hands in his hair.

"This is bad..." he says,"I can't believe I did that".

"Arthur..." I try to console him,"what's wrong?"

"What's wrong?" He questions,"I just kissed you Charlotte,that shouldn't have happened!"

"W-why not...?" I question in a low mumble

"Because!" He turns to face me,but his face instantly softens once his gaze meets mine,
"Because I'm...I'm much older than you".

"...So?" I say,lightly shrugging my shoulder

"Little miss~" he sighs,"you need to be with people...your age".

"...did I do something wrong?...." I question,looking down with a sad expression,
"Is that why your pushing me away...?"

"No!" He gasps,rushing up to me and gently grasping my shoulders,"no no no no no thats not it at all! I love you very much!"

"Do you love love me?" I ask,looking at him with hopeful eyes.

He doesn't answer,looking down to the ground.

He lets out a sigh,"you need to find someone else~"

"I don't want anyone else..." I tell him calmly,"I want you Arthur". I run up to him,and hug his waist in a desperate attempt.

"Please Arthur..." I beg,clutching onto him tighter,"I love you,not anyone else".

I pull away and reach up my hands to gently hold his face,I pull him down,and lightly kiss him.

He gasps in surprise,but after a few seconds, he leans into the kiss.

I pull away,and hug him once more.

"I love you so much~" he whimpers,kissing my forehead,"Charlotte I....I have to ask you something".

"What is it?" I ask,clutching onto him tighter.

"Would you always love me...?" He questions,
"No matter...what I do?"

"Of course..." I tell him,"I'll love you no matter what".

I feel his arms start to shake around me,I pull away from him to see what's wrong.

"What's wrong Arthur...?" I question in a low concerned mumble,"Why are you shaking...?"

"Because..." he lets out a sigh," Because I'm scared...scared that...it'll take control of me".

I think back to my last session at the psychiatrist's office...

Oh no....

"Your dark side...?" I question

He nods,"I'm terrified that...I'll hurt someone".

"Don't think like that Arthur~" I quickly scold him,"you are a good person,you need to realize that,please don't let the darkness take you".

"What if I can't control it...?" He asks,"what if I'm not strong enough to suppress it?"

I look down to the ground,"what exactly...is your dark side?" I question.

"It's like an itch in the back of my head..." he explains,focusing his gaze onto the floor,

"and every time I reach my hand inside to scratch it,I damage things in the process".

"When you say 'itch' " I continue,"Do you mean like a habit?"

He nods,"yea..." he sighs

"What does it make you do...?" I ask

He looks at me with those innocent blue eyes,then gently takes my hand and leads me into a room.

He goes to the closet near the corner of the wall,and opens the door.

I gasp to my utter shock...

It's money...

Jewels...

Any sort of rare treasures you could think off.

"Oh my gosh...~" I gasp,"a-Arthur...What did you do...?"

"I didn't mean to!" He yells,pulling at his hair while pacing around the room,"I-I swear I didn't mean to,I-I just...I just had to okay? It felt so good,stealing from the public...so they can understand how my life was stolen".

"What are you talking about...?" I question, not even recognizing Arthur anymore. This person was dark,this wasn't my friend.

"All my life I was pushed around and beaten up...~" he whimpers,"and now...now everyone will know what it feels like to be a walking punch line!"

He starts laughing....

His voice in a hearty cackle,now erupting into a full on howl of a maniac. His eyes grow wide and crazy,his face twisting into a large abnormal grin.

"A-Arthur...~" I whimper,slowly walking towards him, his back facing me.

He doesn't even acknowledge me,his howls of laughter growing louder by the second.

"Arthur please!" I yell,desperate to make him stop his psychotic outburst.

"ARTHUR!"

I run up to him,hugging him from behind while letting out shaky breaths of utter fear.

His laughing quickly ceased,now leaving the two of us in eerie silence.

"No matter what you do..." I tel him,"no matter what you become,I will NEVER give up on you,not for a minute,not even for a second. I will fight for you,until the very end".

He quickly turns around,grabbing my face and slamming his lips against mine.

Once he pulls away,he looks at me with tears in his eyes.

~"I don't know how long I can put on a happy face little miss,but I will try...for you"~