RAINY DAY

4

"What am I?" I frowned at his statement   "I'm not  a problem that needs to be solve!" my tone changing and I look at him in the eye my inside already raging. hindi naman kasi ako kagaya ng isang kaso na pag nabunyag na ang totoo at may natagpuan na guilty sa krimen ay magiging okay na ako, buti sana kung ganun. buti sana kung may masisi ako sa nangyari kila mom and dad! but it was an accident for god sake! walang kung sino man ang may control sa situation at yun ang masakit para saakin, yung mga bagay na alam kong hindi ko kailaman mababago at maco-control. 

"Don't take it in a negative way..." kalmado niyang sambit na para bang  naririnig niya ang mga nasa isip ko, mas lalo tuloy akong nahihiwagaan sakanya. I sigh at his answer napaiwas tuloy ako ng tingin, It took me a minute to recover sasagot palang sana ako sakanya nang pagbalik ng tingin ko sa pwesto niya kanina ay bigla siyang nawala! saan yun nagpunta? my brows furrowed as  I looked around my room, and then I look down sa may bintana kung saan una ko siyang nakita hoping that he was still there pero wala na siya. 

Napasigaw tuloy ako "ARGH! Nababaliw ka na Agnes!" I yelled as I pull my own hair  

"get yourself together!" I said fixing my composure.

napatigil nalang ako sa pagsabunot sa sarili ko ng maramdaman ang mainit na dampi ng araw sa balat ko, napatingin naman ako sa bintana tumila na ang ulan.

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Kinabukasan I was hoping that I was definitely getting crazy and that I'm just wasted that I started to hallucinate everything and I was hoping na hindi totoong may nakausap ako kahapon, I made sure na I'm sober today so sober that not a drip of alcohol is in me and I wouldn't start to hallucinate again but then I realize that he was real because I see him now sitting down by the window of my bedroom. I bit my lip as I saw him again in the flesh.

"Why are you here?" I said. breaking the silence that enveloped the room and breaking his deep thoughts. 

He looked back at me "Hindi natin natapos usapan natin kahapon" he smiled 

my eyes darts into his sitting position sa may window ko down to his feet, hindi ba talaga to multo? I think to myself  "Close the window" I mumbled as the rain drops started to pour down.

"Ha?" gulat at nagtataka niyang tanong 

"Mababasa yung kutson" sambit ko as I looked at the rain flowing down at him nababasa na siya and my sofa like chair at the window. 

He nodded and smile closing down the windows. 

"Akala ko papaalisin mo na ako" he said ruffling his now wet hair because of the rain.

"Magagawa ko pa ba yun? E nandyan ka na." pabalang ko na sambit as I sigh seeing how wet his hair now and it drips down to my cushion, my hand reaches for my towel at binato ito sakanya.

kita ko ang gulat sa mga mata niya and then he smiled brightly. "Salamat" he then uses the towel to dry his hair.

My dark room has now turned into a dim lit bedroom, he looked around  nakakunot ang noo, his expression shows kung paano siya nahihirapan tumingin sa buong kwarto ko I sighed.

It's frustrating how my system  just know how to be hospitable to someone kahit  na hindi ko naman ganun kakilala and hindi ko ganun kaclose! I pouted as I open the lights, now every nocks and crannies of my room is visible. 

Napataas ang kilay niya ng makitang nakabukas na ang ilaw, but his eyes seems happy, he scanned the room and his coal black eyes darted to me. 

hinead to foot niya pa ako na parang ineexamine kung sira ba ako o ano napairap nalang ako sa hangin.