RAINY DAY

8

I can't stop smiling while the rain pours down. My jaw is twitching as I try to hide my anticipation to finally see him as I stand next to the window, trying to distract myself from this one presence I look forward to seeing when it rains. I was excited to meet him. I was so excited that when I saw the pouring rain in my window, I could not help but smile widely.  Kanina pa nga ako nakaabang sa bintana, malapit na nga mabura pati yung glass ng binta dahil sa kakakuskos ko ng invisible dirt. Nasaan na ba siya? I murmur

Never would I thought to be excited again. Never would I have expected to feel anything other than sadness. If you told me this back then, I would definitely respond, "How crazy is this?" I would not believe such a thing. Until now feeling ko hindi parin siya totoo, feeling ko nanaginip lang  ako. Kasi kung iisipin ko, He's too good to be true alam mo yun? He appeared when I needed him the most, feeling ko tuloy anytime he's gonna vanish as well and thinking about it made my heart ached. It took me a minute before I get myself together realizing how negative I am now, I hissed at myself at mabilis na umiling-iling trying to physically shut down my negative thoughts. 

He is occupying my mind lately. I bite my lip. To me now, he was like a big cup of hot chocolate, where he brought comfort with his warmth and sweetness. I get to know his quirks little by little, like how he's a huge fan of green tea and has a huge knowledge of teas in the short amount of time we spend together. 

I was deep in thought when I heard his familiar deep and soothing  voice

"hinihintay mo ba ako?" maamo ngunit mapangasar  niyang sambit

 I look up at him and watches how the raindrops is dripping on his shirt.  I raised my brow at him at umiling iling

 "Hindi kaya" I defensively say, too defensive for my own liking.

 Napatawa naman siya sa sagot ko, I quickly get my towel and toss it to him. He gave me a smile 

"Salamat" He gratefully says and starts to dry himself.

He walk towards my bed and sit on the edge of it, habang ako nakatayo parin sa may malapit sa bintana, He look up to me and pat the space beside him, without any hesitation I quickly sit beside him. 

"Kumusta ka?" He asked.

 I look at him  and he looks at me back waiting for my response.  His eyes boring into mine showing his curiosity.

"Well I'm okay naman" sambit ko avoiding his gaze

but deep within me I want to rant to him na, about what happen. kaso ngayon ko na nga lang siya ulit nakita, sasalubungin ko pa ba siya ng lungkot na dala ng nangyari that time? Obviously not.  I watch how his eyes scan my face, down to my arms. probably looking for any sign of bruises or akala niya siguro naglaslas nanaman ako? I can't help but feel touched, he was really worried about me.

 "Don't worry I didn't do anything" I mumbled showing him my arms that are clean.  He hold my arms for a moment, scanning it and my heart flutter due to his touch. 

"Bakit ayaw mo maniwala?" I teased him, He laughed 

 "Hindi naman, sinisigurado ko lang"  he shrugged 

Since we've been able to talk deeply in recent days, I've realized how I was trying to open Pandora's box in order to get to know him better. knowing he is doing the exact same. We're slowly getting to know one other better.

I felt my phone vibrated napatingin naman ako dito I opened my phone and I raise my brow seeing its from my school again.  Kahapon pa sila nage-email saakin, what's happening kaya? 

"Anong mayroon?" he asks worriedly 

I look up at him at umiling "Wala"  I gave him a reassuring smile and put my phone down turning it into silent mode.