RAINY DAY

3

"Ayon sa habagat patuloy na mararamdaman ang malalakas na ulan sa ilang bahagi ng Luzon"

I sighed.  more way to make my day more gloomy I mumbled as I looked through the screen of the tv and to the dark skies at my window.

I looked at my wrist that is full of bandage.  After my last night break down it went black, when I woke up I was lying down on the sofa, with the house keepers roaming around the house and cleaning. 

"Ma'am we put some ointment on your wrist" one of them stated the obvious.

I don't want to be rude but the look of disappointment in their eyes is disturbing.  "Salamat po" I said already disregarding the uncomfy feeling I felt. After that encounter I told Tita Sally  that I want them out of the house, and give me the freedom to be alone.  

They saw blood, Alcohol, blade. I'm thankful for their contract, that saved my ass. if nalaman ng public ang mga nakikita ng housekeeper  ngayon they will put all the blame to my mom for raising a rebel child.

There is something about pity that doesn't sit right with me.  I feel like they're using bad situation against you. me coping with the death of my parents with the way I know how is not a wrong thing to do at least that's what I believe and yes I'm raging because I'm totally - totally wasted for a straight couple of days now.  but then I remember they put ointment on my wrist without me asking them to do it. I mean isn't that part of their job? but then House keeper is a housekeeper. putting ointment on my wounds is not on their job description. 

Tita sally called me afterwards alam kong sinabi na ng housekeeper yung paglaslas ko. I just didn't answer the phone kasi I know tita is worried and right now hindi ko kayang makinig sa sermon niya, I'm too wasted to function I just lie down on my bed hoping that when I open my eyes everything would be a bit easier. 

but I guess the world has different plans. 

hindi ako makatulog, kahit parang ang bigat bigat na ng mga mata ko hindi ko magawang pumikit ng matagal, I looked at the ceiling. "Do I need another alcohol?" I mumbled to myself, kaya napatayo ako at pumunta sa wall ng collection ni dad at halos mapamura ako ng marealize na halos nakalahati ko na ang nauubos ko. "Dad I swear I can't drink" I joked.  

I started to walk to my mom's wine cellar.  kumuha ako roon ng wine at kumuha ng wine glass. I know to myself that I really hated the taste of red wine pero kinuha ko parin ito at umupo sa may bintana ng kwarto ko. I looked at the skies it was dark  , I looked down and saw puddle of water. 

I was lucky. I was lucky to have this luxury. I drink the wine frowning afterwards.

Is the death of my parents part of my luck? because I don't want this luck. I whispered as I looked at the dark skies. "ganto nalang ba ang buhay ko?" I mumbled  then the rain starts to pour down na para bang naguunahan tumulo sa lupa.

Napapikit ako. sabay ng malakas na pagulan ang patulo ng mga luhang hindi ko na alam kung saan nagmula.  

Saan Masakit? napatigil ako ng may narinig akong boses, boses na hindi ko kilala.  Mabilis na binuksan ko ang mata ko at tumingin sa paligid, wala naman tao. I sighed

I bit my lower lip nababaliw ka na agnes. I sighed again as I drink the last bits of wine in my glass.

"Hey.."  nang may marinig muli akong boses ay tumaas na ang mga balahibo ko sa braso. Napatingin muli ako sa paligid ko "Wag muna hindi pa ako ready..." I mumbled this words, kasi kung nagpaparamdam na sila mom and dad hindi ko pa kaya, yung sa funeral nga hindi ko na sila kaya makita e, sa multong form pa kaya. 

"Hey" the voice called again  "Si-no ka?" nanginginig akong tumayo para magtago

"Look down" the voice said No... "No I don't want to look." may kasama pa yang iling iling. 

"You don't have to be afraid."  he said calmly

"Nope! Sino ka? Every killer said that!" I closed my eye Kahit alam kong gusto ko na ngayon ma deads, I don't want to be killed by someone, that shit is scary! 

"I'll tell you when you look at me"  he continue to persuade me.

"Can you stop the suspense?" I said my eyes still shut, my voice now sounding more annoyed. 

"Open your eyes then" mapanghamon na sambit niya 

I sigh the curiosity gets the best of me, I open my eyes slowly and holds at the wall for support as I look down.

his eyes was coal black, his skin was tanned. very moreno skin and he has defined jaw and a reddish lips but the one that stood out to me is his brushed up hair.

I starred at him and then he smiled. 

"Mukhang  bang mapagkakatiwalaan?" he asked 

Napataas lang ang kilay ko sa sinabi niya. 

"Who are you?" Matapang kong tanong kahit kinakabahan ako, my heart is beating so fast. 

" Ako si Romar, binibini" he smiled softly Romar? such an old name,hulaan ko galing pa sa   ninuno niya yun, ohh well sino ba naman ako para makapag bash ng pangalan? kung yung akin nga napaka pangmatanda rin naman, Si mom kasi e. 

"Ikaw ay si?" he asked trying to have a small talk I brush it off as I stand on my ground.

"Why are you here?" I cut him off 

"kasi wala ako doon" he pointed outside  

nakakainis yung sagot niya pero mas nakakainis na mukhang seryoso pa siya sa sagot niya. this dude I rolled my eyes. napaka pilosopo! 

"ginagago mo ba ako?" Mataray kong sambit , bakit ba napaka feeling close ng isang to? 

"No. I'm just stating facts" he smirk showing his boyish features. ang sarap tanggalin ng ngisi niya nakakainis. 

"done yet?" Akmang aalis na ako ng just in instance he was behind me now.

"OH MY FREAKIN-" I became dizzy dahil sa nakita ko and surely enough I felt my back on the cold floor , everything went black.

I woke up at the couch, holding my head that feels like a thousand of rocks is stabbing me.

Pag bukas palang ng mga mata ko ay gulatan ako nang makita ko parin yung lalaki kanina, I quickly flinched as I felt how near he is to me, nakaupo siya sa paahan ko.

"Why are you still here?" I yelled at him as I sit up.

Napahawak naman siya sa tenga niya na parang naiingayan saakin. "Hindi mo kailangan sumigaw" kalmado niyang sambit  THE AUDACITY OF THIS DUDE NA PATAHIMIKIN AKO! my brows is still furrowed as I look at him.

"Malakas parin ang ulan sa labas" he said napatingin naman ako sa bintana parang mas lalong lumakas ang ulan kesa sa kanina, na umabot sa point na the leaves of the trees is swaying back and forth na para bang mapuputol na yung branches ng puno anytime soon.

I looked at him again, "tell me how did u quickly get here?" napahawak ako sa sintido ko inaalala kung gaano siya kabilis na napunta sa llikod ko kanina, not even a second  past but he was behind me. I'm sure that he was a ghost!

"Hindi ako multo" umiling iling siya na para bang nababasa na yung isip ko

" What? edi ano ka?" napatayo ako, lumalayo sakanya. kung hindi siya multo at tao siya mas lalo akong natakot. honestly I'm not that afraid of ghost... I remember my dad telling me na mas matakot daw ako sa tao kesa sa multo kasi ang tao daw ay kaya ako gawan ng masama while ghost tatakutin lang naman ako nito and growing up I believe that with all my heart.  

"sa gitna ng pagiging multo at tao" nagiisip niyang sambit his forehead creased as he stare blankly at the wall.

Napataas naman ang kilay ko, he's really playing mind games with me and its annoying me. 

"ano yan di ka sure?" I frowned at his answer lumalabas ang kasungitan ko sakanya, this dude is testing the little patience I have left.

"Let's just say that you're my mission, binibini." his eyes find mine, the corners of his mouth curving slightly upward.