Life (Jessalyn's view)

The truth is out

 That evening I decided to have a counseling session with Emery. We went into the living room and sat on the couch together. Emery seemed quite nervous. I thought that was kind of strange because she usually enjoys talking with me.

"I want these sessions to be more of a comfortable talk than a formal counseling session. So how have you been doing over the past two days?" I asked. Emery sat there for a good minute. She seemed to be trying to decide what to say to me. I sat there patiently waiting. Then out of the silence she started to pour out her thoughts and feelings to me.

"Today I threw up after lunch. I don't know why I did but my mind said it was ok and I believed it. I was feeling so insecure and every time I saw myself in the mirror I saw a fat ugly girl again. I haven't felt like this for a while and I was starting to like myself again. I hate feeling like this," Emery said starting to cry. I sat there for a bit, waiting for Emery to calm down a bit. Then I began to speak.

"Em, I knew that you threw up earlier." Emery looked at me in total shock. I could tell that a million questions were going through her head at that moment, "I heard you when you were in the bathroom after lunch. Why didn't you tell me right away Emery?"

"I thought you'd be mad if I told you. I thought you would punish me or yell at me," She replied.

"Em, you never have to worry about telling me something like that, or anything else that you do wrong. I will never stop loving you. I may discipline you if necessary, but I do it out of love. Not because I hate you or am angry. I may appear angry or disappointed but that doesn't mean I've stopped loving you," I explained to her. Emery looked at me and I looked in her eyes. I nodded as a sign that I meant what I said. I felt that we had just made a progress. I could tell she fully trusted me now. She knew I loved her and wouldn't give up on her. This made me feel so good.