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Regret~ Raph x reader

Warning: Depression, suicide
May be sensitive to some readers
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It has been 8 months since Y/n and Raph had been dating. It was sweet and loving for a couple of months until...Splinter died.

Since then, Raph has been more distant, stubborn, aggressive, and got into more fights than normal. He ignores everyone, including Y/n.

Pass forward to this day. Y/n was inside her room, drawing and writing like usual. She was writing a new story for her dear readers.

As she was writing, she thought about why Raph isn't visiting her anymore. She looked out of the window, the sun was still up but it will go down after a few minutes later.

She decided to visit him and his brothers. She waited until the sun gone out and the moon came to view. She grabbed her purse with her (object), went to a pizzeria to buy pizza then sneaked into the sewers.

After a few minutes she arrived at the lair. As usual the turtles are doing the normal things the do. Leo was watching his favourite show, Mikey's was playing with ice cream kitty, Donnie's in the lab but..Where is Raph?

She went in and got tackled by Mikey as he hugged her. After that she placed the pizza on the counter and went to find Raph. Her first guess was he's in his room, so she went there. She knocked on the door gently.

Your P.O.V~

" Leo leave me alone!!!!" His voice was heard.

" Raph it's me, Y/n. Can I come in??" I asked.

".....Sure" He answered.

I heard the door unlocked and open. I went inside. It was dark. And he seems not to be around. I got confuse and a little scared. I walked in and threw my purse on his bed and begin to call his name.

" Raph!! Where are you?" I shouted/asked.

No answer.

I got more confuse and scared. I noticed the bathroom light was on so I went in. What I found shocked me.

There laying on the floor is Raph. He was bleeding with a knife in his hand. I panicked and quickly grabbed a cloth to stop the bleeding.

" Raph, hold on. You're gonna be okay, please just hold on." I said, trying to sound calm but failed.

He suddenly grabbed my hand. I looked at him. He had a sad smile with tears going down his face.

" Its already too late....Don't save me....Its my punishment.....I shouldn't had hurt your feelings..." Then he slips into unconsciousness.

" Raph? RAPH!!!" I shook him. Trying to get him to wake up but...

He's gone...

Tears filled my eyes, blurring my vision. I hugged his corpse, screaming no no no and wake up. The others soon heard my cries and they too cried with me.

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The next day, we buried his body next to Splinter's. I'm so heartbroken and angry to myself, that I didn't noticed him feeling that way.

I should've comfort him, be there when he needs me, suffer the same pain with him. The others are in th lair now. I stayed. I couldn't leave him.

I starred at his grave with empty, sad eyes. All the good memories started to flood back and made me cry again. The only feeling I have except for sadness was.......

"Regret"