Mixed love ( Tmnt x reader oneshots) *Request open!*

I love you..( Raph x Reader )

A/n: Sorry for updating for a long time!!! >~< The Internet in my area had been disconnected and it took a while to come back, so I'm so sorryyy!!! Anyways, this oneshot might trigger some of you. So watch out!! Ok!! Let's proceed, shall we?

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Author's P.O.V-

All things can be achieved if you do something to achieve it. Though not all things can be achieved and you feel sad and disappointed in yourself. Soon it'll pass and you will continue nevertheless. But some people can't. Because it hurts too much to move on..

Y/n sits on the bench at the park, while watching the sun descending below. It's beautiful...and sad at the same time. It feels like saying goodbye to someone...The scarlet, brown, and yellow leaves fell behind her from the tree that once was green. It's Autumn.. One of most beautiful and sometimes eventful seasons of the year.

She sighed.. Feeling lonely since the park's empty. The silence is deafening.. She looked at the purple, orange, and pink skies. Their colours matching and complementing each other, giving off a peaceful sense. Y/n stayed until dark. After school/work, she would come to the park. To enjoy and escape her tiring and monochrome life. 

The moon's finally here, accompanying it are the tiny stars that twinkle like a gem. The whole place littered with stunning lights. It kinda looks like a fantasy garden..Y/n stood up to leave since its late. But then stopped after hearing laughter and murmuring behind the tree. 

A couple walks,hand in hand, while talking and laughing. She stares at them for a moment, before walking away. Seemingly uninterested..

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Y/n walks on the usual crowded sidewalk of the city. With her hood on and hands in her hoodie pockets, also listening to a song by ( favourite band/artist/singer). She hummed softly to the tune. She turned to an alleyway. Her thoughts unconsciously drifted to the couple she saw earlier, then to her long time crush..Raphael Hamato..

Ahh yes..The hotheaded and aggressive at the same time soft spotted turtle mutant. Who wears a red bandana and have those beautiful emerald green eyes.. No wonder she fell for him.. 

She sighed.. Imagining what they could do if they were a couple and together.  Hold hands, lean on each other's shoulder,  and all those romantic stuff. Just like the couple she saw earlier... 

' I wish someday it will happen.. And we'd be happy!' She thought. 

She turned into another alleyway. Though met with a dead end.  

' Ah shoot! Must've turned into the wrong alleyway! ' She hissed. Y/n was about to turn back until she hears a familiar voice. 

" Hey N/n! What are you doing here?! "

She looks up. There is the turtle of her dreams. His green eyes shines brightly against the darkness surrounding him. Her face turned slightly red. 

" I-I t-took-k a w-wrong turn! " She said, stuttering. Raph jumps down onto the alleyway with a soft 'thud! '. He looked at her, making her face even warmer.

 " Are you okay? You seemed out of it recently. I mean you always stutter and your face would go red. What's wrong with you?" He asked. Confusion and worry filled his voice and expression. 

He placed his large green hand on her shoulder. Making her blush darken. " Ummm...S-Sorry.. I made you worried.." She apologized. Her head lowered in guilt as she made her crush worry about her. 

" Nahh, it's fine.. As long you're okay. If you have any problem, just talk to me or Sensei. We're friends right? " 

' Friends? But... I don't see you as a friend.. So that's what you think of me? Just a friend? ' 

Y/n notices little tears were building up inside her eyes. " U-Ummm.. I-I'll see you l-later! I-I won't for-forget the *sob* pizza!! " Then she ran away. 

Raph just stood there. Both confused and concerned. He watched as Y/n ran at the distance. He recalls the last sentence of Y/n.

' Is she crying? ' He thought. 

It clicked to him. 'The reason why Y/n was being so weird around was maybe...because she likes me? No no no no! Don't think like that! She never loves me. She said it herself! She likes Leo! Stop it Raph!'

He shakes his head and chased after Y/n at the rooftops. 

~Meanwhile~

Y/n sat on the lonely rooftop of her apartment, hugging her knees and crying. Her tears left her eyes and now is falling like a waterfall down her red cheeks. Her puffy red eyes looked at the moon above her. 

' Why? ' 

' Why do I always get hurt? '

' My first love.. broke my heart.. I gave him my love and attention... '

' I thought he'll accept....We will be happy! I will be finally happy! '

' Lies.. LIER!! '

Y/n's cries and sobs increases. Raph stood at the corner. Watching his friend drown in her own sadness and pain. He felt guilty.. ' Maybe she does love me.. How could I been so ignorant??!! ' He thought.

He walked towards her. Y/n noticed a presence behind her and turned her head to him. Raph stops and looks at her. They stared into each other eyes. 

She sighed. Turning her head away from him. He sat down beside her and did the same position as her. The silence was awkward for Raph, but sad and depressing for Y/n..

" Hey.. "

Y/n turned to face him.. 

" Sorry. For making you feel bad.. I now know why are you like that. You love me.. I still thought you love Leo, so I ignored it. But now.. I'm just!..*sigh* sorry.." He apologized, looking at her with sincere eyes. 

She slightly smiled. And nodded. 

" I'm sorry too. For over reacting.. "

" Don't! " He said, grabing her shoulder. 

" I should be the one who's sorry... "

She looks at him.. Then something popped into her mind. 

" Oh.. "

" I already love someone... As much as I want to be your boyfriend... I can't.. To be honest I love you since you came to our life.. But.. When I heard you liked Leo.. I got sad. I felt rejected... Then you know the rest.. " He said. Sadness and guilt filled his voice and eyes. 

" I know... It is not your fault Raph.. I was the one who hurt you.. I deserve this.. " Y/n said.. 

" But!  I just want to let you know! "

Raph was about to stand up and walk away but stopped when he heard the last sentence. 

" I love you.. "

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A/n: That's a long oneshot! I hope you all like it!! I'm so so sorry!!! If I triggered anyone who read this!! I just want to try something different! That's it and bye!!