The end || Randy

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ANDY POVS

"Do you want to accompany me to the gym?" Mikey asked sitting next to me

I always went with Rye, but now he was not.
I was going to say no, but I trought, I'm an ugly and fat boy, I would like to be like other boys, all but me they has a perfect body and smile, but I, nothing.

"It's okay, I go with you" I said shrugging my shoulders
"Good" Mikey smiled

I put on comfortable clothes and Mikey and I left the house.
Along the way, we talked about the previous night, all the guys were watching a movie, and now we were talking about that.

"Here we are" Mikey said

We were in front of a building, I looked at it, I had never been here.
I had never really been interested in going to the gym, I preferred to stay alone at home and hide the pain from the children.
Maybe on the one hand, it's my fault, I should have done something to change myself, but I did not.

"We passed?" Mikey said, pulling me out of my troughts
"Yeah" I answered

We've been in this damn gym for an hour and I almost died.
Mikey did not look so tired, maybe he was used to this.

"Do you want to leave now?" Mikey asked looking at me
I nodded, he knew the answer

Mikey smiled and we took our things to leave this place.
I had only come once, and I already hated it.

We went into the house and Mikey went to the refrigerator to look for fresh water, I was just
going to take a shower

"Thanks for joining me" Mikey said

I just smiled at him and went to the bathroom in my room to take a shower.
I took off my clothes in front of the mirror, then I looked at the marks that were in my arms, marks that I made and nobody saw.
Nobody except one person, that person that I hate so much.

*Flashback*

It's spring and I'm buying some clothes in central London.
I'm alone, the guys were very busy today.
I bought a hoodie a few minutes ago that I wanted to take a while ago, I was happy to have it now.

I was walking down an alley back home.
I frowned when I saw an image that perhaps I should not have seen.

"Callie?" I said looking at her
"Oh Andy" she was startled

She separated from the boy she had been kissing a few seconds ago, and that boy was not Rye, he was not her boyfriend.
My heart broke.

"Why are you doing this to Rye?" I asked
"Andy, you would not understand if I explained it to you" She told me like I was a little boy

I got serious, she played with everyone.

"but I'm sure you know that Rye can not find out about this" she looked at me badly

I laughed a little ironically, of course I'll tell Rye about this.

"you're wrong if you think I will not tell Rye" I said

She looked at me, all I did was turn around to leave.
But she caught my wrist preventing me from doing that.
I groaned when I felt his hand on my wrist, I had recent cuts, it still hurts.
She realized that, and looked at my wrist.
She smiled.

"I'm sure you would not want Rye to know what you're doing ..." She said

Wait, she was he blackmailing me?

I did not give an answer, it was clear that Rye could not find out about this.

She smiled and said "I know how to keep secrets, I hope you do too" she started to move away

I was frozen, I needed to tell Rye about her, but he could not figure out what I was doing, otherwise he would hate me.
I looked at the floor and sighed.

I was not going to say anything.

*FLAHSBACK END*

I hate myself for letting him see that ...
I feel like I'm cheating Rye too, but I can not let him know about my problem, I'd think I'm crazy.
I am a bad friend, and a bad person.

I stopped looking at myself in the mirror and went to the shower, letting the hot water calm me down ...