The end || Randy

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒕𝒉.

ANDY POVS
I opened my eyes slowly, I can see how the sun had risen, I turned around to face Rye
He looked fucking beautiful, as always, his eyes were closed and his mouth was slightly open, which tempted me.
I love every part of him, every fraction, every smile, every look, I love everything
maybe it was not made for me, but I can not forget it, I can not get it out of my head
But I want him to be happy, and he would not be happy with me.
I sighed.

"something happens?" Rye asked me

Oh, he was awake

"No, I was just thinking" I answered
"Good morning fovvs" Rye said smiling
"Good morning Rye"  I said

He opened his eyes and our eyes met.
our faces were very close, and maybe I was wrong, but I thought I saw Rye blush

"um, I think I go to the bathroom" He said and he got up without looking me in the face.

I sat on the bed leaning my back on the wall.
I did not like it when his mood changes so suddenly, although I think it's normal, a lot has happened in the last two days.
He came out of the bathroom, this time with only boxers, it was hard not to look at his body.

"I'm going to take a shower" He said taking some clothes from the closet
"It's good"

Rye came back to the bathroom, leaving me alone in his room, I stayed a few minutes looking at the floor, lost in my thoughts.
I looked at Rye's closet, and smiled, grabbed a Rye sweatshirt, I loved how they were, because they used to be bigger.
I took off the shirt I was wearing and watched my arms for a few seconds with the cuts I made yesterday, until the door opened.

"I'm don-" Rye try say but I interrupt it
"I'm changing clothes" I said quickly
"I see, why are you hiding? I've seen you more times" He answered me

I finished putting on his sweatshirt and looked at Rye

"I know, but I don't like it" I said
"Oh Andy, I do not know what problem you have." He said
"I don't like me" I said

Rye came up to me quickly, putting our faces only inches away.

"I know,but, you're beautiful" He whispered at me, I could feel his breath on my lips when he said that phrase
"I-I'm ... i'm not" I said looking into his eyes
"Oh, we've talked about this so many times" he said rolling his eyes
"and you know you never convince me" I said
"I'll tell you until you believe it" He said at me
"I will no-" I said but he interrupted me
"You're beautiful" He said again, still inches from my face

I rolling my eyes

"I'm no-" I try say again
"You're fucking beautiful" He said me

I did not say more, I do not like him to say that, because I know he only says it to make me happy, but not because he loves me, but I love him

"I love you" I whispered without thinking

I blush when I realized what he had said, and he was surprised, but seconds later he smiled, I loved how his smile looked so close to my lips.

"I'm sor-" I try say
"I love you too" He answered me smiling

I loved that he said it, even if it was not in the same way that I love him.

There were a few seconds of silence, neither of us knew what to do or say, but we did not want to separate either.
He stopped looking me in the eyes to look at my lips, I got uncomfortable, why did he do that now?

"I t-think...we have to go down with the guys" I said separating of him
"Wait" he said

I turned to see his face again

"Why?" I said

I noticed how he thought about something for a few seconds, then, without warning, he took my arms with his hands and hit my back against the wall in front of him.
I opened my eyes surprised

"Rye?" i whispered
"I need you" He whispered looking into my eyes

And before letting me say anything, he put his lips together with mine.
I stay a few seconds immobile, this can not be happening.
I realize how he begins to move his lips on mine, I leave my thoughts aside and I correspond to the kiss.
We move at the same time, your lips and mine fit perfectly together, a thousand feelings grow inside me.
His lips are very warm and very soft, they are magical
He starts to take his hands behind my back, to hit me more against him, I gasped as his body brushed mine.
Observe how his movements began to be more clumsy, as if he realized what he was doing.
He separated very quickly from me, totally flushed.

"oh g-god...I'm sorry, I'm not, I'm sorry" He said babbling
"do not ask me for forgiveness" I whispered
"I just, uh, I'm sorry" He said leaving the room

I tried to follow him, but he closed the door before I could go after him.
Rest my back on the wall, where I had been a few seconds ago kissing with Rye.
I slid to sit on the floor and covered my face with my hands.
I loved Rye's lips, but he thinks it was just a mistake.

RYE POVS

I'm in Mikey's room, luckily the boys were not home.
Shit, what was wrong with me, why had I kissed Andy.
He'll be mad at me for kissing him, I'm an idiot, I do not want to break our friendship
I closed my eyes with tears, the image of Andy's lips reappeared in my head.
Fuck, they feel so good, they're so soft and so perfect.
"Stop thinking about that,Rye" I said at me
What's happenening to me?
It's him, it's his smile, his hair, his way of speaking, his lips, his voice, his eyes, his laughter, it's everything, I love everything about him

"You are in love"

A range of voice inside me, they left me blank, I could not be in love with Andy, I would never be reciprocated
I stayed a few seconds thinking, without getting the image of Andy out of my head

"I'm in love?" I whispered at me

I looked at the ceiling and sighed, I'm in love with Andy Fowler.