The end || Randy

𝑾𝒊𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖.

ANDY POVS

It's been three days since Rye left with Callie, who knows.
There are four days left for him to come, and for me that is an eternity.
The other boys went to buy food, they noticed that I was sad for Rye and decided to go for food to cheer me up.
I do not think with anime food, but they are very good guys, always taking care of others, I could not say no.
I do not want to get out of bed, I do not want to get out of here.
I raised the sleeves of my pajamas, to a little heat, but I could not go short sleeves with the guys in front.
I rolled up my sleeves as much as I could, letting the cold hit my skin.
I loved that feeling.
"Why do I have to be like this?" I asked myself

I turned on my phone and went to Instagram, the guys uploaded a story to a bar, they were having breakfast.
Then I went to Rye's story, I had uploaded a photo of himself in a beautiful place.
I know he's with her, but we decided not to show it on the networks, otherwise the fans would go crazy.
"The best days of my whole life" Rye put in the photo.
I smiled sadly, my best day was when I met him.
Maybe he would be more calm if he had not met me.
Sometimes I think they would be better without me.
Everyone would be better without me.

I looked at the drawer of my nightstand, I did not want to, but I needed it.
I could not do more, I turned my hand to the drawer to open it, I moved some of my clothes and there it was, a box with blades.
I took a knife out of the box and went to the bathroom, yes, I could do it in the room, now I'm alone at home, but I share it with Rye and I did not want to leave any evidence

I went to the bathroom, sat in the vater's cup and looked at the sheet in my hands.
I had done it so many times
I lifted the blade with my fingers and pulled it close to my skin, in a part where there were no scars.
And without thinking, I  started to press my skin.
"Fat, ugly, obstacle" I repeated myself, digging more blade into my skin.
Suddenly, the door of the house sounded very strong, which led me to put the sheet on my skin more than I would have liked.
I groaned because of the pain, pulling it out of my skin.
I was bleeding a lot, but I had to see what happened at home.
I took something to cover my wound and put the sleeve of my sweatshirt on the wound again.
Maybe the guys had already arrived, but it would be strange, I did not hear any car outside.

"¡Shit!" someone shouted from the living room

Wait, that's Rye's voice.