Barrett: A Love Beyond Time

Chapter 4

Chapter 4 - Alone With Me and Something More 

Next morning.

My heart was beating very slowly. I felt protected while wrapped in his arms. He and I share the same mattress, I never felt so good next to a person. Our naked bodies with one another, sharing the need preciously heat that prevailed under those blankets. And neither the cold mornings of London could end all that heat that prevailed within me.

What hummed in my soul, heart and mind at that moment was love. This thing took me sleep almost every night, but also could make me sleep soundly for days.

I looked at him. Had deep sleep, seemed satisfied. Slept peacefully as a child.

Slowly I closed my eyes and I was taken again by sleep.

– I really love you and I mean you... – I woke up with a slight sound of guitar. His voice traveled through my ears angry. I rubbed my eyes and looked intently at him he was looking at the glassy sheet of paper placed on the floor.

– Keith? – I asked softly. He started a little.

– Long time no one calls me that. – He smiled. – Yesterday you called me Roger Keith. I think it's much better than Syd.

– Why?

– Because I'm not Syd.

– Dear, I do not understand...

– Syd and Roger Keith are two completely different people. They are your two halves of the same coin. – He lowered his head smiled slightly. – Hmm... I woke up you?

– Yes, but the best way possible. – I replied quietly. – You are writing some new music?

– Yes.

– And talking about...? – I asked. I stood wrapped in sheets and was looking for my clothes had disappeared last night.

– It's about you, about us. – He said softly.

I stopped and looked at him. Our eyes met and then I saw that grief had taken their eyes.

– And you go away now? – He asked. – Babe... How long will this last?

– What? – I knew very well what he was talking about, but I decided to pretend I did not because it was easier for me.

–This. – He got up and played the guitar aside. – I know that Roger is now in your home, probably worried about you. You're here with me... After all this time we spent the night together, now you go back to him as if nothing had happened. I do not want to live that way. And then?

– I do not know. – I whispered. I feel guilty now ...

He bowed his head for a few seconds as if looking for what to say. A few seconds later, he looked at me again. – Do you love that man? – He looked at me as if my answer depended his life. 

I was stunned by his question. Shit...

– Do not talk nonsense. – I lowered my head. – It is impossible to love two people at the same time.

– No. Not. Don't lie to me. – He pulled me close. – Take the test for you. Look, go back and say you love him, but you two can not be together.

– Syd, that's not how things work. – I said. Roger is important to me just as you are, you idiot.

– Yes Is so. – He answered. - One day I left the house and the band. No news, no excuses.

– The guilt of all this is yours. – I screamed. – You went away, you left me alone, you left your companions. Have you ever stopped to wonder how Rick got? He wept so.