Barrett: A Love Beyond Time

Chapter 9

Chapter 9 - My Sweet Madness Affects You?

I stood looking at landscape clean and clear morning, the view from the house Alice was much better than my apartment. The cool breeze hit my skin, but I could not feel anything. Even so, I felt satisfied by last night. I had seen with Rick, had spoken again with Nick and made ​​peace with Alice and not to mention that I showed Emily how good it was to feel the feeling of running. I had achieved more than I expected and it was splendid.

- You did not tell me how was your conversation with Rick... - Alice whispered in my ear. I smiled at her .

- I forgot to say that? - I hugged her. - It was actually better than I expected, we met again yesterday.

- How so? - She asked confused. I laughed. - You do not already know enough?

- Yes, but let's say that friendship is now past. No longer exists. - I showed the red cord that was tied on my wrist. - Now we have another link very different and more friendly than the old one.

- Ah, yes... - She said. - The old story of the cord. That really worked? You know, Rick can be more sentimental than you might expect...

- In the beginning he was, but he accepted better than I expected. - I said smiling. - And I also saw Nick and now he is the father.

- Yes, the little girl is Natali. - Alice said. - I always remember Julia when I see her.

- Our little girl should be much happier place now. - I kissed the top of her head. - Julia should be playing with my dad and her brother in somewhere out there. Some garden, among the flowers.

- How I wanted her here... - Alice said quietly.

- Me too. - I whispered looking at her. - But there must be a much greater reason for her not being here, that reason should serve to save it for something.

- What reason would that be so great that you take a daughter of her own mother? - She ran away from my arms and stared bleakly at me. - It's my fault! It was me who caused all this...

- Imagine her in the middle of all that has happened? - I replied. - I did not want to see Julia crying because of me or you. Alice, here she was just another little girl lost in the world and all this love that we can not even ourselves. I know it's hard to think that we can not embrace her, to see it grow or just to hear her laugh, but she will always be alive in our minds... And it has enough for something it continues to tour the world. Do not blame yourself, you did enough in her role as mother, but it was time for her to live.

- It seems so easy when you say... - Alice stammered softly.

- But only seems. - I hugged her as tight as I could. - I suffer more than you can imagine.

- I told you how much I love you? - She asked softly. I smiled to myself while listening to it. - Well, every day that pass I realize when we need each other... Like you said on that poem.

- I think I depend on you more than you depend on me. - I answered softly. - If not for you, I probably now be in a morgue of a hospital. But what about me? What would happen to you if it was not for me?

- Well... - She said.

- You see. - I replied. - I'm no good, I honestly do not know why I'm still here.

- Keith. - She said.

I pulled away from her and walked out the back of my blouse. - I'm worthless, I'm am useless. I am completely idiotic.

- Please. - She took my hand. - If it were not for you I would be the best person that could be empty.

I said nothing.