It Was Always You

Nicole

This was it, Joel was finally going to tell me why he left me when clearly he loved me so much, he looked a little nervous so I decided to calm him down a little. I climbed onto his lap and gave him small kisses down his neck "Nicky you need to stop that baby because if you go any further this story won't be going anywhere." Okay he's probably right I should stop but there's something about him that I can't control myself

"Okay babe sorry i'll keep my hands to myself now get on with this story already."

"Nicole, baby the reason it's been so hard to tell you this fucking story is because I honestly think that it will hurt you way more than anything has ever hurt you and the thought of seeing you in pain fuck angel that kills me." What could he possibly tell me that will hurt me so much I don't get any of this.

"Joel the only thing that can ever hurt me so deeply is you leaving me, the day you walked out of my life that was the worst feeling I ever experienced and i'm barely putting my heart back together again." That was the honest truth when Joel left me I literally felt my world crumbling around me and that was the worst pain I ever felt.

"Fuck I know that Nick trust me I know because it hurt me just as much and I never wanted to do it babe but I was forced by your father." Wait my dad? How was that even possible I haven't seen or spoken to my dad in about eight years.

"J what are you talking about how can my father have anything to do with this if I haven't even spoken to the man in years, I have nothing to do with my dad and you know that."

"Do you remember my sister?" now he was jumping to his sister I am seriously so confused as to what this has to do with us but I guess it all fits in together somehow.

"Ya Savannah right?" I only met his sister a few times but I remember her being a fun outgoing girl and I actually really liked her.

"Ya baby Savannah" now his eyes were tearing up, what the fuck is happening?

"J are you okay babe?" I couldn't help myself I crawled over to him sitting on the corner of the bed and wrapped my arms around him for comfort.

"I don't know angel this story is just really hard to talk about but I love you Nicole I love you so fucking much that I just have to say it, I have to tell you everything if I want you in my life." As much as I hated seeing him in pain he was right this was something he had to say if he truly wanted me in his life.

"So tell me baby, whatever it is i'm here for you J, you've always been my rock and now it's time for me to be yours, I love you Joel nothing will ever change that." His eyes lit up with joy and that made me so happy, he meant so much to me and no matter how bad this story was going to be I will always love him.

"Okay so remember the day we went to that one burger joint on the pier and we ran into your father?" uhm okay this was like four years ago.

"Ya I remember, I also remember him saying hi to me and you and I walking away as fast as possible to get away from him." I hate my father so much that any thought of him makes me sick let alone seeing him in person.

"Okay well after that encounter we had with him you went to the restroom and I was waiting for you outside remember that?" okay I went to pee seriously this story wasn't getting anywhere.

"J seriously get on with the story stop asking me if I remember every detail of that damn day"

"That's the thing Nicole I have to because I have to make sure you know every fucking detail okay" at this point he was already yelling at me so I just shut up and sat as he continued.

"As I was saying you went to the restroom, and as I was waiting for you outside your father saw me and came to have a word with me" ofcourse he did my father hasn't been a part of my life since I was five and he wanted a word with my boyfriend how strange is that.