Only You Can Make Me Whole Again

chapter 6

Chapter 6

Clarke's POV 

I hear the approach to Polis, as I open my eyes. People are calling for their heda. I know her people love her. I hear it in their voices and see it in their eyes. Lexa slides down Nat gracefully and helps me down. My knees are so wobbly I almost fall, but Lexa catches me. She is looking at me with so much concern, as she steadies my body. I know she won't let me fall.

I give her smile and I know in my eyes she can read that I am ok, for now. I can't let her people see that I am weak. I feel weak, I just can't let people see it. Everything hurts, from my body to my soul. I don't know how I can ever heal from this.

I notice Lexa's guards as well as Octavia and Lincoln surround us as we make our way to the tower. I hear cries of "Heda and Wanheda" the whole way there. I really don't like the name her people gave me. It's just something I have to get used to.

As we are approaching the tower a little girl runs up to us, and before her guards stop her Lexa waves a hand signaling that it is alright. The little girl is holding two flowers that I have never seen in the books I read on the Ark or down here on the ground. She hands one to Lexa and then the other to me. 

We both crouch down at the same time as we go to thank her she reaches up and gives me a hug. I stiffen at first, I am not used to people touching me anymore. I put my arm around her and return the hug. After a moment she steps back and says something in trigedasleng that I can't quite understand, she is talking so fast.

I look up at Lexa and she quickly explains. "She is thanking you for bringing her brother and father back safely from the mt. The mt. men captured them 3 years ago. Since then she lived in the children's home, for kids without parents. Her mother died two years before that saving her from a reaper attack."

I look down at the little girl and give her another hug. "Your Heda brought your family back. I just made sure they couldn't hurt you or your family again." 

She then looked at both of us in awe, before bowing bashfuly and running off with a smile on her face. We then entered the doors to the tower and though I slept most of the ride I was so tired. Just the walk to the elevator wore me out.

 I know I can't go to sleep without Lexa and I talking some. Thankfully Lexa passes up my room. Her guards go in her room to check everything out. Lexa turns to Octavia and Lincoln "You can both go to your rooms to relax. We will see you in the morning. We will have breakfast here and discuss things then. Thank you both."

All four of Lexa's guards come out the room "All clear Heda" they tell her. We both then go to the room. She ushers me to a chair to sit, while she sits on the sofa next to me. 

We sit quietly for a few minutes before I sigh and begin "I guess we have alot to talk about."

"Wait, before you say anything I want to say something." She pauses and I am almost scared as to what she has to say. " Clarke, I know none of this is your fault. I also know that it was not the bulk of Arcadia that did this. We will work together to resolve this. If this is something that you want me to handle I will. I know this has affected you greatly and I don't want you to have to worry about your mom and your friends in this." 

I never expected her to say something like that. I was thinking she was going to talk more about how her people needed justice for this and I know they do. I would want just as much."

"I want justice for this Lexa. Your right, most of my people had no idea this was going to happen. They didn't even know it had happened. They voted Pike because he preached safety and they were upset about their friends and family dying in mt. Weather."