Only You Can Make Me Whole Again

chapter 5

Chapter 5

Lexa'a POV 

My mind won't stop going. I know what my people will want, no need, and that is justice for the massacre. I need justice too, justice for my warriors as well as for what Bellamy did to Clarke.

I will not waiver on this. I know Clarke won't like it. I have no choice in the matter. If I don't seek justice, then there will be war and the coalition will seek my head. I can't ever hurt Clarke again. I don't think either of us could survive it.

For now we just have to make it to Polis. Then I can talk to Clarke, Octavia, and Lincoln. I need to find out what happened and who was involved. My anger is boiling over though.

I feel Clarke trembling before I hear her whimpers. I wish I could take all her nightmares away. I slowly start rubbing circles on her hand with my thumb. "Its alright, Clarke. It's ok, your safe. I'm here."

I don't know if it's the sound of my voice specifically, but I feel her breathing slow 
down to normal. Her eyes slowly start to open. "Tell me something about when you were a child." Clarke asks. 

I know she us trying to get her mind of her dreams. "I remember not long after my parents were taken, it was a few days after I started training with Anya. It was the day everyone found out I was a nightblood. I knew I would be sent to Polis in the morning. I didn't want to go, even though I knew I would still be training with Anya. I ran away to this lake I would swim in with my nomon. It grew very late. I fell asleep looking up at the stars. I later learned that my favorite star wasn't a star at all."

"Must have been the Ark." Clarke said.

I look down at her and squeeze her hand gently. "It wasn't long before Anya found me. We talked for awhile about the stars. She also told me that when she was little a pod, like the one Raven came down in, fell. She was there when the commander at the time was interrogating the man that was in it. That's how I knew it was the Ark." 

We keep riding in silence for a few moments. I look down at her and ask "What was it like on the Ark, growing up."

Clarke's POV 

"I was one of the privileged few. Growing up I only had one friend. His name was Wells. His dad was chancellor. My parents were on the council. Life wasn't so bad or so we thought. It was all we knew. Resources were strictly rationed. As a child it was all normal. As I grew up I found there was alot about the Ark that were not right but we had to live with them, because that was the law. To change things would have made the Ark die sooner."

We continue to ride in silence for awhile, I can almost hear Lexa thinking. "One thing I never understood was why your people sent children down to see if the ground was survivable." 

"We found out the Ark was dying. It wouldn't be long before we ran out of air. The council decided that we were expendable. If we died they didn't lose anything. The 100 were just kids, that is true. We were also criminals. Everyone one of us had broke their laws. On the Ark every law only had one consequence. It didn't matter how minor it was. For anyone over the age of 18 they got floated. Floated is where you get sucked out into space. There is no air that you can breathe and you slowly suffocate. If you are under 18 and you break the law you get put in the skybox, jail. You are there till your 18th birthday. That is when they decide if you can rejoin society. All but a few would get floated."

Lexa squeezes my hand. I can't imagine what she is thinking. Our cultures are so different, yet they have so many similarities. I know she has more questions. "I can't imagine kids being sent to die. For us kids are a blessing.  What did you do to be put in jail. I can't think of anything that you could have done to put you there. If you were still up there would you have been floated"