Bungo Stray Dogs: Two-edged love.

Chapter 5: Risky Game of Life

WARNING: this chapter contains things that may trigger people who have been attacked. if you feel uncomfortable by this please skip this chapter. Thank you and have a nice morning, day, night or evening. Let the chapter begin.

(Y/N) P.O.V.......

I stood in the middle of the streets. I was vulnerable to anybody, I could easily be recognized as a healer. but knowing the mafia and what was written in that letter they're probably gonna be watching me for a while to make sure I don't try anything. I looked at the bracelet around my wrist it was the last thing I packed when I left it was also my last gift from Chuuya... I wonder how he's doing right now, I hope to god he's safe.

He might be worried about me and looking for me, but god knows he shouldn't and he would be putting us both in danger. I really didn't want to come to this, i thought i could help people without being caught like my parents, but it was by the Port Mafia. Now i'm here with all the worries beside me and i cannot help it.

I watched as everyone smiled and was laughing with others and they had nothing to carry with them, no sadness, grief, displeasures, pressure or worries. They seemed to be perfect, unlike many people. How rare was this, a place where everyone is perfect, there are no mistakes. But there is always one to ruin it all, that person is me.

I filled with emotions and doubt, wanting to go back, wanting to be embraced by chuuya and yell at him for something stupid, or even getting into an actual argument with him, anything other than being here without Chuuya, he cared when i lost hope. I don't know why he would go to such limits for me when i had done absolutely nothing to deserve this. Any of it.

I should've gone with option one, I don't think anyone would notice me if I had died and disappeared. Chuuya would be free of taking care of me and I wouldn't have to worry at all about any thing and that would be truly great. I continue to walk through the streets of yokohama a little longer. Soon passing by some alleyways.

I stopped when i passed a arcade. I smiled a bit, this is me and Chuuya would always go when we were bored or had nothing to do, i always tried to make bets with him i knew i was going to lose. Chuuya would get excited with a victorious smirk on his face insisting that he wouldn't make me pay up on the bet saying it was to easy to win.

I sighed and looked at the arcade and merely stared at it. I balled my fists as i saw the sun set, i have already made my decision and i cannot go back on it now, after all what's done is done. My question would be how was i going to survive, i have to back away from the mafia and healing people.

If I do, any choice that i made wouldn't have mattered, i made my money when Chuuya was alway and i wasn't sick from healing anybody i helped. I knew his schedule well, what nights he tends to leave. And when i'm away he arrives home early i make up an excuse, like any normal teenager would with their parents. Now that I thought about it Chuuya did somewhat act like an overprotective father or brother.

I felt emotionless, i felt like a broken doll. That isn't useful anymore. I'm no longer happy or entertained, i'm only here in this world to be used and thrown out soon after. My emotions had changed. I was no longer the girl i was, i sort of want to be happy again, with my parents. I felt a chill go down my spine, i was truly alone, the streets began to be less crowded with people.

A hand was placed on my hips, and slowly i felt someone touch my stomach rubbing it. "Hey~" The gruff somewhat of a deep voice said from behind me.

"Please get your hands off of me!" I growled instantly. "You have no right to touch me!"

"Chill darling, i'm only looking for fun. How old are ya? I'll pay you~" He declared, i tried to turn my face to look at him. "You look at me and i'll kill ya."