It's a mean world after all (Yaoi love story)

Chapter 18

Jack's POV

I sat at the piano playing a song, it for sure wasn't a happy one. the past month has been a living bell,sort of. I swear I've had sex with more people in this month then most people do in their whole life. but I couldn't help it, the feeling it gave me, like having my memory taken away, and u enjoy it. Tony isn't on my mind at all, all I think about is the naked person beneath me. Tony of course, filled my mind once those feelings ended. at school he sat by himself listening to music, dark circles under his eyes, hair a mess, cloths wrinkled, he had really let himself go. it hurts to see him like this,but what hurts more is that I don't try to help, I don't even feel like I want to help him.

Tony's POV

I've read ten books now, trying to find the meaning of life, why I shouldn't give up, and they all say the same. it gets better, you just have to live to see it. Well I've been living for 18 years and all life has done is go bad! like chunky spoiled milk that's left in the fridge for months. and the fridge isn't even turned on! that's it,I'm done I'm just so done.

I grabbed my coat and headed out, mom.and dad were working late tonight, would be better this way. I made it to the road where I had been hit, the day I found out. I walked out into the middle and just sat down. I sat there for what seemed like forever, then again,this isn't a very busy street. maybe this wasn't the right way to do it, maybe it wouldn't work. I survived being hit by a car once, I could probably do it again. so again, not 100% sure this would work. I was about to stand, when I felt a vibration in the ground, and I could see headlights.