FOR THE BOY WHO STOLE MY HEART, p.parker

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//𝑛𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟, 2016//

dear peter parker,

i finally had the courage to speak to you today. you might remember, despite the fact it wasn't that memorable.
i said hello and complimented your hair. you said hi back and said my name in your adorable voice which unintentionally went up two octaves.

and just the fact that you remembered my name made my heart flutter, although i would never admit it to harrison.
you finally acknowledged me.
despite the fact that i had to initiate it and the fact that we've been in the same classes since freshman year, you made my day.

so maybe it was only a passing conversation to you, but each baby step will amount to something, i hope.

a part of me thinks that it might be because you've seen me with harrison. him and i have been hanging around much more, which you probably haven't noticed. he's been really good for getting my mind off you. except it hasn't been working today, as you can see by the fact that i'm writing you another letter.

he knows i like you. he knows i want to get over you.
and he tries to help. he tries so hard.
i want to ease his pain. i want to give him what he deserves and i'm trying to get there.

i cant even imagine how he feels.
every time he thinks i've taken a step in the right direction, i instantly take two steps back. it's like he's trying to get me back into sobriety after a drug addiction.

you're my drug, peter parker.
an obstacle i must overcome to get on the right path.

slowly getting over you,
y/n