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Dear Mom and dad,

First I wanted to say that I'm really sorry. I know it's difficult losing me after Shaun, although it doesn't seem like you cared much about him so maybe it's actually really easy. Maybe you won't even read this and there's no point. Either way, I need you to know that this isn't one of those stupid it's not your fault notes, actually it is partly your fault. Especially yours Dad, you kicked out my brother, my twin, and then you acted like nothing happened. He died. And you didn't care. Not to mention all those times you'd hit mom and don't even give me the "Your too young to remember that" bullshit because I do. Me and Shaun would sit there for hours waiting for the fighting to stop. But I guess that doesn't really matter now, does it. You aren't the only ones to blame of course, there's many more. But if I have to tell you the truth, it certainly started with you. Your not the ideal parents but I still love you anyway. And mom, remember when I said I didn't have any names for the new baby? I do. If it's a boy you should name him Caleb, if it's a girl name her Anya. Whatever you both do, don't mess it up, this is your second chance. Be better. For me. I love you both, maybe when the baby is older you could tell them who me and Shaun are. Show them pictures, only tell them good stories. And give them this note I've attached on the back.
-Nathan

Dear younger sibling,

I don't really know what gender you are or what mom and dad named you but, I do know that your super special. I remember when mom found out she was pregnant she was so excited. The look on her face was priceless, that being said you probably want to know who I am exactly. I'm Nathan, one of your older brothers. The other is Shaun, we are twins. You'll never get to meet us unfortunately, but I can tell you that we'll be watching over you. I'll make sure nothing happens to you alright? Just like Shaun did for me. Except, physically I won't be there, but when your nervous draw a bird on your wrist, I have one on mine too, once you draw it talk to it. Or just touch it. I'll respond no matter what, even if you can't hear it. My best friend Kory has a little sister who's 3 currently, you should try being friends with her, Sophie is amazing I'm sure she'd love a new friend. I bet your wondering where I am, after telling you so much I can guarantee you want to know, to see me. I am on a secret mission to this place in the sky. Now I know I won't come back, however I get to see people I haven't seen in a long time. People who will make it amazing even without the rest of you, but one day your gonna go on this mission too, and you'll get to meet us. I hope it's everything you've ever dreamed of. I love you, kid.
-Nathan 

Dear Kory,

I hope you can forgive me, I know how this went sucks, I know that your probably pissed at me and won't open this for years, but whenever you do, I hope you know that it didn't hurt, and that it's better this way. For me and for you. My mom is going to be giving birth in a month or so, she still won't tell me the gender. I bet them and Sophie would be great friends either way, you should try and get them to meet. Don't do what Wyatt did and become a stranger after my death, if anything be closer than ever. I never got around to telling you Kor but I seriously do love you, you're my best friend and have done nothing but amazing things. I really hope that one day you can fly to space, dissect a snail, eat 4 pizzas in a row without puking, and even build your own go-kart, like you've always wanted. I know those are things you wanted to do with me, but really I'll always be there. You can still do them with me, just not with me. I hope that makes at least a little sense. Anyways, I'm running out of space, despite there being so much more I want to say. Unfortunately I have to go, but if you ever feel lonely or upset, just read this again, and remind yourself of everything you want to do, and do it. Be the best Kory you possibly can, it will be worth it in the end. I love you so much, hope you don't mind me keeping your hoodie.

-Nathie<3

Dear Wyatt,

This note doesn't really have much purpose I guess, I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for letting you down, I promised you after Shaun died that I would be strong and I would never do anything stupid, anything to regret. And that's exactly what I'm doing. For all sorts of reasons. Kory has a notebook of mine, I think you should read it. Hopefully you'll understand a little better now. Kory needs a friend, maybe you could try and be one. I don't know, thanks for being there while you were, I'll always appreciate it.

-Nate

Dear Adam,

I know you know what you did, I also know that you never thought about the consequences. You never thought about what would happen. You were always high. I understand it was never really you per say, but always drugged up you. So I forgave you, I continued to forgive you every time. Even though it sucked, I still did. I always bounced back up and gave you another chance. This time, I don't think I can. I don't think anyone can. It's been 2 years for fucks sake. Did you really never understand? That all this time it was slowly just building up until I couldn't take it anymore. Or did you know. Was this what you were trying to accomplish? If so, congratu-fucking-lations. You got what you wanted. I just really hope you get it now. That you don't fuck up again with someone else. I hope you've learned from this. I really do. For what it's worth, I've decided. Your not forgiven this time. I really hope you can live with that, and change.

-Nathan