The Bloody Mountain

III: DIAZO

I was packing my things for the mountain climbing since I really can't sleep. Besides, we will be leaving early tomorrow. It's a 5 day event so I packed five t-shirts and two extra pants. I also did put emergency kit in case of emergency. It's better to be prepared since we will be going on a mountain that seems to be a forest. I also added some crackers and more importantly bottled water and some other necessary things. I was about to get my phone when I saw a frame on my table. It was my family. Me, my dad and mom. We were a happy family but they all left me. My dad died when I was 4 and I could only remember few moments with him. I was so young that time but i knew he was certainly a good father to me. My mom would always say I looked a lot like my father. Maybe she was right since that would other people say too.

" I missed you mom, dad," I whispered and kissed them on the frame. I hope they were here too but, they already have left me. Am I that bad in my past life that I always end up being left by the people I love? First was my dad, my mom followed, then Sarah and Seth. I wonder where were Seth and Sarah now. Last time I check, tita Katrina said they went to L.A.. Perhaps, they have kids now. They were really unfair, they should have told me if they have kids already. I might have become their tita.

That was such a creepy thought that I didn't even realized my tears were already running down my cheeks. I always end up thinking of something hurtful. Well, I shouldn't be affected right? I moved on.

Now, I wish Sarah and Seth told me the truth. Maybe I have had accepted the truth easily. Maybe I would be hurt less..... Maybe I even have attended their wedding and become Sarah's bridesmaid.

And maybe.... I could still see him now. I shook my head for that thought. I realized that it was way better the way it is now. That they left without telling me about their relationship.

I couldn't imagine Seth saying he doesn't love me anymore and that he love Sarah. Or that he doesn't really love me, he just used me to be closer to his real love who happened to be my best friend. I couldn't take that. It would really be my end. I'll be more devastated than what I've become when he left me.

And I couldn't also handle if Sarah would have confessed to me. We were like sisters. And as far as I remember he liked Ken, not Seth. Ken was Seth's best friend.

Maybe she just lied to me. Maybe she was referring to Seth when she talk about her crush who was Ken as I'm told. She never showed affection to when Seth is near her... or maybe only when I'm around. I trusted and loved them both that I never doubt the two of them having an affair.

I remember Sarah would always divert the topic when I'll be  talking about my relationship with Seth. She said we were too cheesy. But there's no hint other than that. She was so supportive and she was the number one fan of AzoSeth. Well, she made that combination and I quiet liked it. Whenever we have misunderstandings with seth, she would always find way for it to be solved. And when I won't let Seth explain to me,.. Sarah would always blackmail me. She won't talk to me and will ignore me if I won't talk to Seth. That was how she supported my love life. She wanted Seth for me... that's what I thought.

Well, Sarah was so childish. So opposite of the way she looked. She was taller than me though we are of the same age. She had an oval face, pointed nose and blue eyes matched with her long eyelashes and thick eyebrows. Her hair was black but it was naturally blonde. She colored her hair black since she wanted black like mine. She looks splendid. I was even envious of her beauty. She lives alone in her condo since her parents were based on New York. Her parents doesn't seem to care on whatever she'll do anyway.

Most of the time, I was in her condo since I don't like to stay at home with tito Alejandro. I already considered her condo as my home since I don't belong to the mansion tito ruled. He was too good when my mom was still alive. But then, he showed his true color when mom died. I was 14 when my mom married him. I never liked him from the start. He was just too plastic. I knew what he wanted from my mom. It's money not love. And he got what he wanted when my mom died a year after their wedding. He was making things under his control that's why I left the house. Now, he was acting like the reigning king. He's ruthless and I don't want to be under his control. So I lived on my own, not depending on my parents money which was supposed to be for me. If he wanted money tha t much, then he better eat all those that my parents left. I don't need them. I can live on my own.