Forbidden Love | Rainbow Six Siege

9. I Hate Everything About You

U can play the song if u want, i recommend it. It makes the experience better.

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"You got hurt during the mission didn't you?"

"Yes."

"How bad."

"Bad."

"Can I see?"

...

Silence. Jäger was quiet as Bandit asked the question, and seemed quite defensive as well. It was like the look in his eyes were telling him to get out, but his expression read: Stay, I need you. It was odd to try and read his friend, lover? No, friend. Bandit was committed to Twitch, and being away from her was hell and more. There was no doubt in his heart that he loved that woman, and that he would do anything to be with her; whatever it takes. But what about Jäger? What about him? That look? That face? That body? The way he looked at him so innocently and naively. It was like he hadn't had a clue in the world. No one to tell him what to do, no one to say to him what he could and couldn't do.

"So? Are you going to answer me?"

Jäger couldn't find himself to answer the German man standing before him, and just in return Bandit was lost in his eyes. Why? Why was Bandit lost in his eyes? Why were a man's eyes so captivating? Why was he stuck in this forever lasting moment with another guy who hides so much from him? All he could ask was why? Bandit felt as if he were staring for an eternity.

"And the mental illness?"

"What?"

"What happened Marius?"

Then there was silence yet again. Bandit was growing impatient, standing here, getting lost in the eyes of a man who couldn't even speak or tell the truth for the least. Jäger stood up and for a moment Bandit didn't know what was happening. His eyes snapped down and he saw the way he limped forwards until they were only inches away. Centimeters? Millimeters? They seemed to be getting closer and closer, and all Bandit could do was stand there like a dumbfounded idiot.

"Just one more time?" Jäger's head was tilting and Bandit was just staring at him, and never in his whole life had he felt like an idiot. Bandit was high out of his mind and he couldn't seem to stop thinking about how much trouble he could get into if he was caught by anyone, let alone Jäger. He would've truly heard it from him if he knew. His heart was pounding a million miles an hour, the room was spinning in circles, his head was throbbing and aching; all of a sudden his eyes were closing, his lips were moving, his hands were exploring, and...Fuck. Here he was again. Back to the beginning. Back to where he started. Back to a place he didn't want to be. Back to...memories. Twitch...skin...naked...exploring...moaning...love...ecstasy...regret...want...need.

"I.." Bandit broke the kiss, tears in his eyes. "I, hate, everything about you..."

Jäger was confused, perplexed, hurt, unwanted. Bandit looked into Jäger's eyes, then all of a sudden tears were running down his face. "Why, do I...Love you?" His lips were parted a bit, but Jäger looked even more confused than before, less hurt, but more confused.

"What?"

Too late, Bandit had smashed his lips against Jäger's and there he was again. The beginning...again. The memories that were flowing through his mind and overwhelming him caused him to almost pass out. But he didn't care, this was all about Twitch. Why couldn't he be with the love of his life? Why was he so captivated by this man? Jäger fell back onto the bed from an aggressive push, a whimper escaping his lips from the sheer pain from his side. Bandit looked at him, the eyes of a predator looking at his prey. Nothing but hunger in his eyes, as if he were some kind of wild animal. Bandit pulled off his shirt, and that seemed to be the end of it all. It was like hell. that's the only way he could describe everything, hell. His heart pounding against his chest and reminding him that this was wrong. His mind screaming no, but the drugs screaming yes. His heart aching and telling him to do it, but not to betray Twitch.

Bandit wasn't thinking anymore. He wished it was Twitch again, but it wasn't. It wasn't the one woman who could make him do anything for her. It wasn't the one person who could make him say yes no matter what, no matter the circumstances. Through hell, through heaven, through danger, through safety. Only she could do that to him. Could Jager do that too? It seemed like it. Why was he even feeling this way in the first place? Why was he feeling as if he needed Jäger? Was it the drugs? Was it how long he was away? Was it the thought of losing him forever? What if the others never found him? What if one of those horrid creatures found him? What if...What if... That's all Bandit was thinking about. That...and Twitch. It was the only two things that seemed to be running through his head like a carousel. He wanted it to end, he wanted this to be over, he didn't want to feel anymore. He just wanted to do whatever his heart desired, he didn't want to think anymore.

"Dom?"

Bandit climbed onto the bed and pushed Jager down so he was now on his back against the warm comforter, and suddenly he remembered how he fell hard against the ground. The rooter was in his face, one of the scariest moments of his life. This time it wasn't the rooter, it was Bandit, hovering over him. Jager's hand slowly went up and he felt himself tracing every crook and curve, every scar and tattoo. Bandit's eyes were piercing through him like lasers, but Jäger's eyes were focused on the things he was seeing until his hand made its way to Bandit's face. They made eye contact, and that seemed to be the last thing that he remembered until his body took control.

"I can't control myself..." Bandit spoke, his breath shaking when the words escaped his lips. Jäger had nothing to say, what could he say? Bandit leaned down and pressed kisses against Jäger's soft neck, then attempted to put his hand under Jäger's shirt but Jäger quickly grabbed his wrist. Bandit looked at him then moved his wrist to Jäger's pants, forcing the button open, and the zipper down. Jäger said: "Are you sure?" Bandit looked at Jäger and there was...a look on his face. A look of telling Jäger that he was unsure, but before the protest could come, Bandit undid his own button and zipper. He was eager for something, and that something was a someone, and that someone was Jäger.

"Are you high?"

"Do you want to fuck or not?"

"Not when you're high..."

"I'm not."

"Do you want me?"

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"Yes."

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Thats the end of chapter 9!!

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