ATEEZ IMAGINE

ATEEZ

After a few minutes, San came in. "Come with me." He said, in a tone i havent heard before from him. Was it sad? Was it worried? I dont know... but whatever it was, it seems like im about to receive some bad news. "What happen?" I asked getting off the bed. "Am i gonna join?" I continued. San face turned pale. I guess the answer is yes. "If he asks... turn it down. I know i said we are safe. But... you would be fighting big guys, you can be put to danger." San said. "I'm sure i can do it. I fought Mingi once... for a cookie." I said. "Mingi goes easy on you, we all do." San admitted. We both stayed quiet. "Now lets go." He said, breaking the silence. I followed San to the meeting room.

"Welcome, Sir and Miss." a security guard — who i've never seen before — said. "When did you get him?" I whispered. "There are always security guards, but we keep them in certain places whenever we want and need to." He answered. The door opened, revealing the others. They all looked so serious. These arent the faces im used to seeing.

"So... the decision is up to you. Do you want to join?" Hongjoong asked. I stayed quiet. Rethinking... do i want to join? I'd be put in danger but then again, i get to be next to my bestfriends. BUT i also have to put on two different personalities. Do i really want to join? "I already told you... she cannot join!" Seonghwa suddenly yelled. Hongjoong looked at him — calming Seonghwa down. "None of us want her to join. If it wasnt for San dumbass and Yeosang dumbass we wouldnt be put in this situation. But you just had to make it worse by asking her to join. We couldve just simply told her, fuck we are a gang and thats it. Nothing would change. But you bringing her in will change everything." He said. San and Yeosang both rose. "My dumbass?" They both asked. "Shut up! All of you! Im going to join and thats it!" I yelled before leaving the meeting room to go back to my room.

I can hear someone following me and calling out to me. But im just too mad to stop and talk to them. They all fought... just cause i knew they were a gang. Pathetic, i couldve easily turned my back on them and waited for my death. But im actually a good friend, and decided to do... the right yet wrong decision. Fuck! I can never make a right decision. "Stop crying." I heard someone say. It was San. I couldn't even look at him in the eye. We were infront of my room — tears falling. "Why are you crying?" He asked. "Why'd you guys have to fight? Why cant i ever make a right decision?" I whispered. He hugged me causing me to cry onto his chest. "Its ok... we usually fight like that. If you want to do it... then do it. But if you dont want to, you can still tell Hongjoong." He said. "But its not ok. I agreed just to make yall shut up. I dont even know if i want to join." I admitted. "Not everything is ok. I dont know how to control my feelings like you guys. I dont know how to stay sane. Just thinking about it all makes me go crazy. What was it thinking when i told Yeosang? I shouldve just stayed quiet." I continued, crying harder. San stayed quiet.

"If you stayed quiet... you wouldve probably stopped talking to us." San started — interrupting the silence. "Telling Yeosang was the right decision. But i think you should rethink about joining. Do whatever feels right to you." He continued. He pulled away from the hug. "Go to sleep. I think we will have a meeting in the morning. Say your final decision there." He said before walking away. "Good night." I said going in the room. I changed into pajamas and laid down.

Do i really want to join to be closer to them or to help them out?

If i join will i be safe?

Would i be able to defend myself?

All these questions in my head is making it hard to sleep. I havent even realized the time flew by quick, it was already 3 am. I got up, to get a glass of milk. I entered the kitchen. "Youre up early?" A tired voice said from behind me.

Im probably gonna end this in the next chapter or the one after it lmaoo idk. Imma try updating this every friday. Reminder: requests are open. Adios.