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jongho ⚠️

warning: mention of self harming, depression, and suicide.

«jongho pov»

i knocked on my bestfriends door. she texted me saying sorry. it was 2 am. at this time, i knew she feels depressed and insecure. there was no answer. i opened the door. i made my way to her room. i knocked on it. "y/n?" i asked. i heard sniffles and sobs from the bathroom. i walked over to it. there she was, crying.

her hair was on the floor along with a razor and scissors. the scissors were used to cut her hair and the razor was to cut her skin. i looked at her and quickly took her into my embrace. "its ok... its over. im here." i whispered to her. her sobs became quiet. her once long hair was now a little over shoulder length. and her once smooth skin was now covered with cuts. "im sorry..." she whispered. "its ok, im here baby." i said.

after an hour of comforting her, she stopped crying. during that hour, i tried treating the cuts. it made her cry even more due to the burning sensation of the ointment, but she made it through. i also made her take a bubble bath. one, to remove all the hair from her body and two, to relax. as she changed into something comfortable, i made her tea. she came in the kitchen, where i was. she handed me her brush. i brushed her hair while singing a ballad. this made her calm down even more. as her bestfriend, i knew what helps her go through the rough times. it has been a long time since something as bad like this happened. she usually calls me before it hits 2 am. it must've been so bad that she forgot to call me. at least i wasnt close to losing her again.

"y/n... please stay awake. for me at least. if you cant stay awake for yourself, stay awake for me. i need you." i whispered to her. we were waiting for the ambulance to come. luckily it came in time and they were able to help her.

i took a deep breath in and out to prevent myself from crying. I finished brushing her hair. "here is the tea." i said handing it to her. i put the brush back to her room. we both walked to the living room, sitting on the couch. "you dont have to answer... but what happened?" i asked her as i went to sit next to her. "the same thing as usual. the voices... they were coming back. i tried fighting it. but as you saw i barely made it." she answered. it was silent. "please... if it happens again, fight it harder. youre a strong girl, i know you can make it. if you cant make it for yourself." she interrupts me. "yeah yeah i know, make it for you. you said that many times. and im trying jongho." she said. she puts her head on my shoulder. "thank you... for everything you do for me." she said. "i have to. youre my bestfriend after all. i dont know what ill do without you." i said. "i love you." she whispered. "i love you too." i said in response.

i woke up, in the same position as before i fell asleep. though the tea was now on the table. y/n head was still on my shoulder. i picked my phone up and checked the time. 10:38 am. "y/n wake up. we're late for school." i said. she sat up and stretched. "i dont wanna go." she mumbled. "we arent going. its too late now. i just wanted you off of me." i said with a smirk. "meanie. what are we doing today?" she asked. "what do you want to do?" i asked. "sleep." she said with a pout. i shook my head. "lets go watch a movie." i said. she shook her head. "i dont wanna leave the house." she said. i groaned. "fine, lets stay here and watch a movie." i said. "wait... but lets eat first." i continued.

i spent the rest of the day with y/n. as i made it back home she texted me.

bff y/n

thank you for
everything :(

stop thanking me sksks, i told
you that i would do
anything for you

ik ik :(
i love you

i love you too, now go to
sleep. and dont wake
up until there is sunlight

fine, but answer the
phone if i call you

ok

after that, she didnt call me. at least she fought it tonight. i dont know what i'll do without her.

Omg yall kcon is so close sksksk im so excitedddd!!!