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san

«san pov»

i exit the car, being hit with the sound of rain. its been a week since i came here. i made my way to my girlfriends tombstone.

i placed her favorite flowers —chrysanthemums. i sat infront of the tomb. "hi beautiful." i started off. "it is awkward talking to an object, but youre under it. so you can hear it right? im lying. youre up there. so you can see me, and hear me right?" i said looking up at the sky. the rain was getting harder. i closed my eyes for a second, so my tears dont fall out. "i missed you baby. im sorry i couldnt be there for your worst days. you know i was busy with everything. im sorry i couldnt help you. i need you back. i cant live another day without you. it hurts seeing that you arent next to me, that i cant feel you, or that i cant hear that beuitufl voice of yours. i miss you baby... please come back." i cried out. i tried not crying, but it came out. my sobs were preventing me to continue talking. "i love you..." were the last words i said before leaving.

i entered the car. i tried calming down. breathe in, breathe out. i told myself. surprisingly it worked. as i was calm, i drove off to head back to the dorms.

"youre back. did you get wet?" seonghwa asked paying attention to his book. "a little." i mumbled. he turned to face me. "a lot. ill make tea, go take a hot shower." he said. i sighed but obliged.

after changing, i entered the kitchen. "here." seonghwa said. i gave a small smile and took the tea. "thank you." i said. "what happened?" he asked. "i went to y/n grave." i answered truthfully. "in the rain? you shouldve gone tomorrow. we have nothing to do tomorrow, and it isnt going to rain." he said. "nah, i wanted to go today. enough about that. where are the others?" i asked, changing the topic. "jongho is sleeping. mingi and yunho i think went to play games. yeosang, and wooyoung went out somewhere. hongjoong is in the studio." he answered. i nod my head in response.

"dont you think its time to move on? its been one year." he said. i shrugged. "i still love her, hyung. she died in my arms, she died when i told her i loved her. she was my everything. she gave me life. she gave me everything. i really love her, hyung. i dont think nothing can change that." i admitted. i felt my eyes teary again. "im sorry. its hard, but just try and go be social. she wouldnt want you to be here like that. she would want you to be happy." seonghwa said. i closed my eyes and took a deep breathe in and out. "think about it." seonghwa said, i heard him leave. i opened my eyes, a single tear drop fell. i wiped it off. i guess... i should do that.

«one week time skip»

me and wooyoung went out to go get food for us and the other boys. "you havent visited y/n?" wooyoung said, but it sounded more like a question. "last week... seonghwa told me that she might want me to be happy and do others things. so i think maybe i should visit her at least once a month, and try to be more social." i said. as we were next in line, wooyoung looked at the menu. "should we just get eight orders of the same thing... or?" wooyoung asked me. "four korean fried chicken and four fried chicken." i answered. "and get eight orders of fries. then we can order pizza when we are on our way home." i continued. wooyoung nod, as he agreed with me. we went up. "four orders of fried chicken and four orders of korean fried chicken. oh and eight orders of french fries." wooyoung ordered. "is that all?" the cashier asked. wooyoung looked at me. "thats all." i answered. wooyoung paid, with the money hongjoong gave us.

"oops, im sorry." someone bumped into me and spilled their soda on me. i wiped it off with my hands, but she helped cleaning it with paper. "its ok." i answered. "im so so sorry. can i do anything as an apology?" she said with an apologetic look. "its fine." i said. "are you sure? ill go buy you a new shirt—" I interrupted her. "its fine. i dont need anything." i said with a smile. i held on to her wrist and moved her hands away from my chest — which was still wet. wooyoung nudge me and winked. "i cant think of anything actually. give me your number so when i think of something, i can tell you." i corrected myself. she smiled and nods her head. as i typed in her phone number, they called wooyoungs name for the food. "name?" i asked. "jinae." she answered. i nod my head. "ok." i mumbled. "thank you." i said with a smile. she waved bye and i helped wooyoung.

"san got a hoe." wooyoung yelled as we entered the dorms. the pizza was on its way. "who?" "when?" "finally!" and so on was heard from the boys. this is the start of a new beginning. "nah, i think ill just be her friend. im still not ready for a relationship." i said. "at least you went out and aas social." seonghwa said which i nodded to.

Lmaoo i didnt know how to end it oof. i was gonna upload this earlier, but i completely forgot sksk (not edited)