Wings of Forever

Final Fly

I Left My Heart When I Left You

Shyrelle's

Lola Glors was kind enough to let me eat breakfast with her. She told me that my best friend Leyy is still sleeping, I was kinda surprised because she I didn't mention that she'll be spending her whole two month vacation from work here.

Before I left Pampanga I also visited my parents, though I did not went inside our house. I was just standing few feet away our house. I don't want my mother to see me messed up like this.

My heart is still hurting but I know that knowing the truth will make my wounds heal faster. I trust him, sa pagkakataong ito I will not close my mind. I will understand his reasons, because that is what I promised before.

I let my car windows down. It's almost lunch but I am on my way back from the place I wanted to escape yesterday. I will not be a coward anymore. This time, I will fight for my love.

As the wind touches my skin, the painful memory of that night where I left Archangel behind is playing repeatedly in my mind, I can feel my heart being torn apart.

I sniffed, stopping the mucus from falling down. For three months of hiding, shutting the world down and avoiding the reasons why my heart is screaming in torment right now I realized it's time to clear things up. Whatever happens this day will stay in this day.

A sigle tear escaped from eye and rolled down on my reddish cheek as I reminisce the last time I saw him.

Hindi ko alam kung paano ako nakaalis galing sa coffee shop na pinggalingan namin ni Auntie Caroline. I can't even utter a word, I felt like my body is paralized due to so much sadness, pain,and disappointment circulating through my viens.

After I heard everything from Aunt Caroline, I ran outside the coffee shop. I feel so lost, I have no one to be with. My friends are out of town and out of the country because of their works, I don't want my parents to worry about me I don't want to break their hearts as well.

The only person I can run with night now is the reason why I am running from everything. Ironic isn't it.

I ran like it's my last time, then I saw myself sitting on a bench in the near park.

I was catching my breath so hard, naninikip din ang dibdib ko but I didn't call for help, I know I can save myself. Because at this moment, I don't think I can trust someone again.

"Miss? Miss are you okay?"

I heard someone asking me, I pushed him away.

"Leave me alone!" I cried. You can do this Shy, your heart has been broken into million pieces and this little asthma of yours won't never be able to kill you.

I just cried there like a lost little girl. Hugging her knees while her tears pooling down her eyes. "S-Sobrang sakit.. ang sakit s-sakit masyado Archangel, o k-kung sino ka man.." I whispered.

I didn't eat lunch. I was just at that park crying my heart out, I am so alone.. people are cruel.

When I saw light is finally starting to fade out, I made my tracks. I bet I look like a zombie right now, walking on the street with her shirt soaking with tears, her eyes swollen by too much crying, her hair looking so devilishly messy.

I didn't care about the weird stares people throws at me. They don't know how it feels to be betrayed, to be deceived.