❛ My Perfect Hyung ❜ - JinKook ✔️

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"Jungkook, wait—"

Jungkook snatched his arm from Jin's light hold. He pressed his palm to his forehead and sobbed. His heart clenched behind his chest and he wanted to die.

"I swear I wanted to tell you, kookie," Jin explained. "I really did."

It felt like a dream. Jungkook could barely believe what was happening to him.

"I should have told you before you confessed your feelings to me."

"Now what!? Now that I've foolishly gone ahead to confess my feelings to you, what happens?!" Jungkook snapped at him.

Jin shut his eyes. It was getting difficult for him to breath. His heart went sore when Jungkook began to cry again.

"Please don't cry. I can't stand to see you cry. It's worse that it's because of me."

"You make me a fool of me, hyung," Jungkook accused. "You deceived me. Did you even ever have me in mind?"

"Don't say that. You know I did. I do have you in mind, always. I care about you way too much, " Jin replied in exasperation.

"Then, can you explain what just happened with your roommate?" Jungkook questioned, wild-eyed. "What was that!?"

Jin fingered his hair furiously. He shook his head lost for words. Sighing, he let his hands fall by his side.

"Nothing? I don't deserve an explanation for what I just saw?" Jungkook's lips pursed, as he still shrugged his shoulders.

"You do. Of course, you do."

"So, tell me. Explain to me what I just saw. Is he your boyfriend? Your lover? How long have you been with him? When were you going to tell me about him, about you? And why did you lead me on?" He questioned.

"You're... You're misunderstanding this whole situation, Jungkook. Hoseok and I have been together for almost 3 years and I—"

"What?" Jungkook gasped, a fresh set of tear brimming in his eyes. "3 years? It didn't just start now, but 3 years? Hyung! Why would you do this to me?"

If anyone had told him his Jin hyung had been in a relationship, Jungkook would have never believed. In fact, it was his confidence that Jin wasn't in any relationship that gave him the courage to make the decision to confess his feelings. He had imagined a life with Jin. He hadn't thought of the possibility of there being anyone else by Jin's side.

Where, then, was all of these coming from?

"I'm sorry, I didn't tell you about Hoseok. I... In the beginning, I didn't think there was a need to discuss it. I enjoyed your company and you enjoyed mine, I didn't think there was a reason to tell you that I was in a relationship. But now that I've gotten to know you, I regret not telling you. I should have told you when I had the chance. It's all my fault you're feeling this way."

Jungkook chewed his fingernails frantically, blinking like he had pepper in his eyes. His mind was racing with thoughts.

He had never had a chance from the beginning. No matter what he would have done, Jin wouldn't have looked at him because he had someone else. It wouldn't have mattered either way.

His heart plunged into his stomach. But Jin... Jin was the one for him. He had built his trust and hope around Jin. There was no way he could survive without him. He hands shook and his lips trembled.

Jin took his hands and held them in his. "Please, don't hate me, Kookie. I know I messed up big time but don't give up on me because of it."

Shaky breathes escaped Jungkook's tears and saliva moistened lips. Wet scared brown eyes stared into his own. Jin was afraid, too.