I woke up to my alarm going off madly,i groaned and got my phone,i blinked my eyes a couple times to clear my vision, then I shut my alarm off and checked the time 6:02 my phone red, I sat up,stretched, and then I uncovered myself "Burr!" I squealed. The floor was cold in my feet. I went to my walk-in closet and grabbed a pair of high waisted jeans that were a dark colour that had a pale part in the middle of them, and for a shirt I just got my I ❤️ Paris Tee, I got dressed and then I sat at my vanity and brushed my hair out smooth "there ;) almost ready" I assured myself, then I did my makeup , all I wore was eyeliner to make the cat eye look,eye shadow, and lipstick it was a bright pink!

Then I grabbed my phone and went upstairs to Red, the only one awake, and he made me some oatmeal "your breakfast is on the island sweetie" I heard him say "okay.. thanks" I said with a half smile. When I was finished earning my oatmeal I went into the mudroom and put on my purple and black Adidas high tops , after that I put my north face jacket on (it was purple on the outside and neon orange on the inside) "Tell mom I said bye Red ! and goodbye Red!" I giggled "bye sweetie love ya " he hollered "Love ya two!" I hollered back, and then I met Andrea around the block to walk to school together.

When we got to school we split up to go to our classes ... I had Tech first.... Yay!.. , Once I got my books for first period I headed to tech , once I got to tech I sat in the front ..like always ! "hi mrs. Caverhill" I greeted "hello Ava !" She replied ,

Once class was over I went to find Andrea for break .. but I couldn't find her .. so I went to her homeroom teacher mrs. Doak and asked where she was .. she just said she went home early .. Why didn't she tell me?

~after school~

After school I called my mom and told her I was going to Andrea's , I walked to Andrea's and knocked in her door "hello Ava ! Andreas upstairs ..she wasn't feeling we'll today so she came home.." "okay thank you :)" And I headed up to Andreas room.. not even knocking I went in..

"Andrea! What's wrong!!" I yelled .. she was up against her bed crying "everything AVA!" She yelled crying hopelessly "I've had enough of it!" She whispered "oh Andrea.. You should have came and got me ..." I whispered sadly .. I walked over to her and sat beside her , while she leaned her head on my shoulder .,.

~Leaving Andreas house~

"Bye Andrea!" "Bye :)" she waved and I went home .. I had diner there so I just went downstairs and did my homework ..after I finished homework I flopped into bed and fell asleep in minutes ..

~Morning~

I woke up to myself puking my guts out, I yelled for my mom between breaths .. she ran down to my room and had to help me get to the guest room, because my floor had throw up all over it ..good thing it was wooden floors.. In the guest room my mom put a bucket beside the bed and said "you can stay home sweetie" I nodded and texted Andrea -Hey Andrea I'm really sick so I won't be going to school..-

No reply.. But oh we'll .. I fell asleep after I took Advil and and I fell asleep faster than a pill out ever make me,

~Waking up~

I woke up around 3:00 feeling much better .. But stomach felt a little upset tho .. But next thing I new ..my mom came rushing in "what mom?" I questioned "oh sweetie..." she cried "what!!" "It's Andrea ..." "What what's wrong with her mom tell me!!!'' I screamed ..." Hunny .. She's gone..." she whispered ... "no... No ..NO!!!" "Your lieing!!!!!!!" I screamed .. with tears rushing down my cheeks..

My stomach turned sideways as I stood up and threw my hair up , and ran out the door .. not even waring shoes . I seen an ambulance at Andreas house... I ran faster , once I got to her house I ran up to her room ... The ambulance was cutting her from a rope that was around her neck... No.... ... Once they let her fall to the ground I ran to her ... people tried to stop me .. but it didn't work ..

I hugged her tight... "Andrea.. Why?" I whispered balling my eyes out .."you didn't have to do this" I hugged her tighter "sweetie ...she's in a better place now.." I heard her mom whisper holding my shoulder .."NO SHE ISNT!! SHES ONLY IN A BETTER PLACE IF SHE IS WITH ME!!!!" I screamed "please don't yell" I heard her whisper .."sorry..." I whispered back and I held Andreas hand until they took her from me ...

My other half was gone...shes never coming back.... ever... I feel deAd inside ... I feel like there's nothing left .. I have nothing to love for anymore... Andrea is gone...

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